Wednesday, September 30, 2009

The New Do


This is me with my new haircut. Yes, it does look alot like the old haircut. I am posting this pic, but sadly, I hate my smile. Too big, you can see where my teeth should be. Sad, but true. I was telling my sister this morning that since I've lost weight I can tell just how much my missing teeth have changed my face. Not taking care of my teeth is one of my biggest regrets. Maybe I will win the lottery and get a smile makeover...lol
The sweet girl that did my hair is my friend Koe. Anyway, not much else to say. Food is good. Slept late, will walk on teadmill this afternoon. I hate it when I don't get my walk in early. I rarely over sleep. Rode the bike to work and waved the entire way again this morning. Yep, I'm just that crazy.
Keep the mood and the food real..........do your do

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

tootsie roll please.....

Without the wrapper it looks alot like poo. Sorry!

When I was asking people to help me describe it, everyone said to say it's chocolatey chewy almost like taffy, not as sweet. The ones I buy are half this size and come in a bag of I'd guess 30 or so. I hope this has satified all those from the UK who have no idea what a tootsie roll is. You probably are still wondering what all the fuss is about. I can't eplain the hold they have on me....lol

Another evil thing about them is that they are small. They lie to me and say...just one isn't going to kill you. All the kids are doing it..look how small I am....I don't really count...

I will admit it....I ate the damn thing right after I snapped the pic. It was such a soft one. The softer they are the better they are....sigh.

Tomorow is another day


the good news or the good news

Well do you want the good news or the good news. That's right my friends, good news all around! Had a follow up with the Dr. about my blood pressure yesterday. My doctor said it's the best blood pressure he has ever seen. Ok, he didn't really say that, but I could tell that's what he ment. Plus he praised me as I have loss 6 pounds since my last visit about 6 weeks ago.

Then I go to my weight loss meeting. Let me start by saying that I love my little group. It's just me and 3 friends and one hubs. We cheer each other on. I love that we know each other well enough by now that we can talk about the why's. Like why I bought and then ATE 2,( yes 2 don't judge me), bags of those damn tootsie rolls. It's no wonder I am "irregular"..... cue the Activia commercial. I still managed to eek out a half pound loss. I will take it with a smile on my face and a song in my heart.

So I am going to keep it REALLY REALLY simple for myself this next week. DO NOT UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES PURCHASE ANY TOOTSIE ROLL OR RELATED PRODUCTS, i.e. tootsie pop. That's it. They are my Goliath! I am just not going to eat them this week and then let's see how my weight does next Monday. Cause seriously, I can do better then a half a pound. You know it, and I know.

One more thing that happened at the meeting. My cute little younger friend gave me a sack of clothes that are too big for her now. Beautiful stuff. I was just thinking over the weekend that I was going to have to break down and buy some jeans cause I have zero. The jeans she gave fit nicely and she gave me a bunch of t shirts. A while back she gave me a dress that I can't wait to wear. I can zip it up....but I certainly wouldn't wear it out. One day though...lol

So that's the good news from me today. I will say that I can tell today is going to one of those "pressing forward" days. To me that means that I will have to put in some extra effort day. Kind of like walking into the wind. I am meeting resistance in the form of TCB (the crazy brain). This is what I will tell TCB today.

I'm good enough, I'm smart enough, and GOSH DARN it people like me.

Keep the mood and food real......stay away from the tootsies! (this week anyway)

Monday, September 28, 2009

My Friend Flo

I walked into the office ( just a house, really) this morning and someone had turned the air down to "freeze your ass off" cold! BRRR. My toes are like ice! I didn't ride the bike this morning. I was trying to figure out some way to get it home after work without being a pain in someone's rear, and it just wasn't happening. The mornings are great, the afternoons are still freaking hot...106 today. So I added an extra mile to my walk this morning. Still am hoping that i will get a short ride in this evening. I am realistic though, I know that I peter out after about 5 pm. I go to bed and wake up very early. Not even cooling off by 5pm.....sigh.

I rode about 12 miles yesterday morning round trip. I went to the AA meeting where I got sober. It's a 6:30 am meeting. Anybody that will get to a AA meeting that early is serious about recovery. Anyway, I saw lots of old friends. Missed alot of friends too. Some people have gone back out, some have passed, some are in prison. Some people didn't even recognize me.

I got alittle teary riding home. When I 1st arrived to AA I had an 82 year old friend, her name was Florence, that took me under her wing and helped me that 1st long year of recovery. She had over 30 years sober. I called that woman everyday...every single day. She was my angel. She passed in my 3rd year of recovery. After she died I didn't go to as many meeting anymore. I have replaced the meeting with church. I enjoyed it so much yesterday morning I think I will try to hit that meeting more often. I went away with a really good feeling.

Church was awesome and over by noon! lol. I just kind of organized some drawers and planted flowers in pots for the patio. Napped and just had a relaxing day.

At some point over the weekend I was out with the Gkids. The weekend went so fast I can't rememeber if it was Friday or Saturday night. I'm getting old. My daughter made some DELISH turkey burgers.....yummy!

Didn't really want to come to work today. Back to being by myself and doing the clean up refiling from all the stuff I had to pull for the auditors last week. Weigh in tonight. I have no clue what will happen.

Had NVS....I was able to wear a cute skirt that I got at the clothing exchange a couple of months ago to church Sunday. It wasn't uncomfortable either! Couldn't even zip it up when I got it it. So go me.

Just going to try to put together a good day today. Some days you feel more more then others. Today is an other day...not feeling it, but that's ok. Hell, it's only 8 AM, things could change....lol

Keep the mood and the food real.

Friday, September 25, 2009

Time flies when your having fun!

A really quick post. This week has flown by. Having the auditors here all week has been lots of fun. We sailed thru with flying colors, and today they even took my co-worker and I out to lunch. NICE! It's been so nice to be here with someone other then myself.

Have been sleepng better, good for me! I walked my 3 miles this morning, but I drove to work. I had to take some things that wouldn't fit in my backpack, so I didn't have a choice. I really missed riding this morning.

Car is driving nicely. I just keep thinking good thoughts and clling the car pretty names. Hoping that it will last for a while with no more repairs. I can dream, right?

Went out to see the Gkids last night. I am posting a pic of my adorable youngest Gkid. Her smile is infectious!

Not sure what the weekend will bring. I plan on a long walk and a long bike ride. Maybe a pedi. Not to mention my usual Saturday shopping with Mr. 92. I am totally LOVING Mrs 82. She is so sweet and seems to just love me. Who doesn't love to be loved....right??

Then tomorrow night my church as a televised meeting for women. It's very uplifting and I am sure it will recharge my spiriutal battery. Who doesn't love that. Plus, they always have a nice dinner after the meeting. It's like a girls night out.

If your interested you can go to lds.org to check it out. You can listen to it live or you can watch too. It starts around 5 pm MST.

Looking forward to spending time outside, hoping the weather cooperates. Any good movies coming out the anyone wants to recomend??

Also......I have a hair appoinment Tuesday. Cut and color Thinking I might shake things up a bit, but will see how brave I am Tuesday....lol.


Have the bestest weekend EVER!

Keep the mood and the food real. Recharge your batteries!

PS- I just noticed I have 100 followers! How did that happen? To think that 100 poeple thought enough of what I have to say to follow my blog simply BLOWS ME AWAY!

Again, FOLKS YOU GOT MY HEART!

Thursday, September 24, 2009

What kind of world do you want?

Got a great night's sleep. Headache gone this morning. Go me!! I rode the bike to work this morning after I did my walk. I have been walking probably alittle less then 3 miles so I can make it to work on time riding the bike.

This morning I was just crazy ass happy. ( Karen's term ) I was listening to Five for Fighting. The song World. "Be careful what you wish for, HISTORY starts now". What kind of World do you want! Pick Anything! Build a masterpiece! Loved it!

So I decided that I would wave and say hi to everyone I saw on my ride to work. I go thru kind of not so good neighborhoods. I did just that ! I waved at every car. Said hello to every sad looking teenager "drudging" to school. Waved at city buses and school buses. I got lots of waves back. I surprised alot of peeople and I loved getting the smiles back in return. Even from gangster looking kids.....lol.

Food good, water fair, mood JOYFUL!

Keep the mood and the food real! Build a Masterpiece!

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

four wheels again!

How lovely. I got a migrane at work today. Complete with getting sick to my stomach. So dang it....and I was feeling so good this morning. Actually I am feeling alittle better just being home.

This morning's bike ride to work was gloriuous. 76 cool degress and not a cloud in the sky. I am going to get the most out of the winter this year!

The audit is going along really well. My co-worker and I run a pretty tight offfice so we aren't too stressed. It's been kind of fun to have others in the office all week. And...best of all I got my car back!! I have decided to still ride the bike to work and home. It didn't cost be a dime over he price he quoted me. So nice guy. Crossing fingers that this will be the last car problem for a while.

Not going to make it out to the Gkids tonight. Going to go to bed early and nip this damn headache in the bud. One good thing about it...I feel too sick to eat...lol. What's that line from The Devil Wears Prada. Emily Blunt character tell Anne Hathway's character that she is just one stomach flu away from her goal weight...lol. That's kind of how I feel tonight.

I am sure I will feel better in the morning. A good night's sleep goes along to making me feel better.

Keep the mood and the food real. Get your 8 hours!

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

expectations

Well the weekend came and went too fast! On Saturday I had a nice day with my Gkids and then came home and did some work from home.

We are having our anual state audit this week, so little time to blog from work. My computer at home is acting all weird. Half the time I can't leave comment or add picutes.

Sunday was great I went for a 10 miles bike ride. QUESTION? When does the hoochie stop hurting? I am suppose to be getting callouses or what to toughen it up, down there. TMI ...sorry. Loved the ride. It just feels so stinking good! Then I went to church. I love early church, have I said that....well I do...lol. Then afet church I cleaned and organized and watched alittle Tv and went to bed early.....blah blah....what a darned exciting weekend.

I weighed in last night at my meeting and I got on and it said I had gained a half a pound. Then somebody said try it again...it said that I had loss a half a pound. So I am calling this week a draw...even stevens from last week. I really exercised alot, but my eating, though good, was not stellar. I ate alot of good things. Too much of a good thing is STILL too much! Not near enough water either.

But you know what I am totally ok with my weigh in. I was almost expecting to gain. I know that it's going to be harder from now on. I am going to have work harder, watch my food and the amounts closer. I also know that the holidays are coming up. So realistically I am going to focus on more and different exercise, eating well and in moderation, and drinking H20. If I loose, so be it.

I feel so great lately. I feel healthy and younger then I have in years. YEARS! I am not going to let this plateau or whatever it is get me down. I keep loosing and then gaining the same 2 lbs. I am really close to the 100's and I have seen how that can mess loosers up, even if they are still really trying. Something about that milestone is hard. So I have decided to go with the flow. I am not going to expect massive losses. I will expect my stamina and outlook on life to steadily INCREASE though!

I haven't heard from the Jackass. Probably won't again, at least for a while. I thought alot about my personal situation over the weekend and I came to this conclusion. I am glad to be alone. I love my life. Sure I get lonely sometimes, but I am only as lonely as I choose to be. There are a few fleeting moments when I miss not having a man, but they are few and far between. By the time you are my age they ALL come the some kind of baggage. Even the good ones! I am just not willing to deal with it all. Besides, I am a chicken to get my heart broke again. It might never happen, but I just don't want to chance it. This is how I feel today....Hell tomorrow I could have already changed my mind....but I doubt it.

Keep the mood and the food real......be realistic

Saturday, September 19, 2009

jackass teflon

The weirdest thing happened last night. I was at Walmart and saw my old boyfriend. Yikes! I was with him for about 7 sevens, about 10 years ago. He was there thru my parents death and the death of my son's dad. I had a rough year that year. Plus we used together big time.

It was weird. For such a long time I wondered and stewed over this man. I haven't dated or anything since we broke up. It was totally all in my head. All I could think while we chatted was "man I dodge bullet". I think I might have developed Jackass Teflon. You know, where they just slide right off me.

We have talked on facebook and have talked a couple of times on the phone. After I got home last night he started texting. Yikes again. He wanted to get together today. I begged off. He'll go away I'm sure. I can't tell you how good this feels. I'm growing up. I am doing the right thing for me. Feels good to be the one not interested. He dumped me. Yep, feels good.

So I went on an extra long walk this moring. I turned the ipod up and just got into it. I rarely do that anymore. Going to ride the bike over to Mr. 92's house and then take him shopping. Then I am going to see the Gkids.

treat yourself well. keep the mood and the food real.

Friday, September 18, 2009

picture Friday



here's the proof that I really have and ride my bike!


It's kind of a POS (piece of sh*t), but hey, it get me where I need to go. Note to self...get a gel cushion for said seat. OUCH!


Also, here is the pic of the house that I just put a bid for. Planning for the worst, hoping for the best. Not giving up.
Have a great weekend!

too many tootsies!

Was going to post my bike picture this morning, but my computer is acting stupid. Oh well! Getting ready to walk out the door ride the bike to work. Then I will walk on the treadmill after I get to work. I am glad it's Friday, but not really looking forward to the weekend. Had a tootsie roll/licorice free for all last night. Ick! I was sick the rest of the night.

So I had best have some plans to stay busy or I am afraid I am gearing up for a weekend pig out. I want to hike and do some bike riding. It still gets up to 100 degrees during the day, so maybe another movie in the afternoon this weekend. Sunday is church. My church starts at 9 am this year. I love early church!

The car might be fixed today. Not getting my hopes up. I think even after I get the car back I am going to continue to ride the bike as long as I can. Going to get a food list together and hit the food store as well. That is going to crucial to my success this weekend. I am looking to try out those flatbread pizzas I hear people rave about. I need to shake up my food for sure. I am going to have to break down and learn to cook. I keep threatening that...lol

Hoping to get out to see the Gkids as well. I miss those little chipmunks!

Make this a successful weekend for yourself as well. Plan ahead for your own success. Tell me your weekend plans. Gimme some good ideas!

Keep the mood and the food real! Be successful!

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

cooler mornings

It is finally starting to cool down some in the mornings here in The Valley of the Sun. My bike ride to work this morning was so nice. I didn't even break a sweat....and that's saying alot! Hello! menopausal woman coming thru. I walked my usual 3 miles and rode 4 miles this morning. Awesome feeling. I mapped at a route that is mostly side streets. Traffic and bike scare the hell out of me. So this morning's ride was much nicer, easier. Loved it. Why haven't I been doing this before?! The handlebars are crooked though. Need to get that fixed...lol.

I plan on trying out some of the hikes in the area. My mother loved to hike. I remember hiking with my mother and my sisters. Probably bitching the entire way. Good times... lol. But they were. I wish I would have done it more when I had the chance. Regrets, yes, I have a few.

I think I might even try it this weekend early in the morning. It was just so nice darn this morning. Summer kills me. Though this summer wasn't as bad as last. I am excited to be able to get out and do somethings this winter.

I feel like I might be getting back to feeling like a normal human being. It's been about a month since I stopped the hormones. My body is leveling off. At least that's how I feel now. Tomorrow ...we'll see...

Eating is on track, though yesterday I was hungry! Drinking lots of H20. Hoping maybe to get out to my daughter's this evening. I have to go see both Mr 92 and Mrs 82 today as well. So we'll se how I feel after work.

Keep the mood and the food real.

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Sensible?? Me??

I somehow managed to eek out a 1.5 lbs loss this week. I have no idea how that happened. I ate out alot, though I didn't go crazy. Plus, I walked alittle farther each day last week, so that helped also. I am looking forward to a great week ahead.

Like Mr. Shit said in his weigh in post. It feels like this is something I could do long term. I didn't feel deprived at all. I was sensible. I am over the moon excited about looking better, but all in all...being able to walk and breath easier is the best. I wasn't perfect last week, but I was vigilant about not eating really bad stuff. Again, I tried to eat good for me foods. Drank alot of H2o.

I have been noticing that I am getting more sensible in alot of other areas of my life as well. Spending money being one of them. Another is the way my housekeeping has improved. I decide to clean instead of eat......MOST TIMES...lol.

I got another old person to help out for some extra cash....sweet! So now I hae Mr. 92 and Mrs. 82. I called her yesterday and said "Are you still expecting me" She said " Expecting, but not pregnant" hehehe. She thought that was the funniest thing she ever said...lol. She a very sweet little woman.

The car is in the process of getting fixed. Riding my bike to work. Even this has been freeing. We depend way to much on our cars. Being able to walk or bike to work is awesome! 7 months ago this would have been a disaster for me. I would never have been ale to live without it. Now, it's inconvenient, but not the end of the world.

Put in aother bid on a house yesterday. Not expecting much, but not giving up either.

Make it a good day.

Keep the mood and the food real!

Monday, September 14, 2009

get moving

It has been a lazy day at work today. This afternoon I mostly checked out the library website for new books.....love me a good book to listen to! I have the new "Prey" book by John Sandford waiting for me at the library...it's like Christmas...lol. I love a good murder mystery.

The weekend was good. Went to 2 movies Julie and Julia ( loved it ) and also 500 Days of Summer ( it was cute ). Cleaned, went for a long bike ride yesterday morning listening to my "Wait Wait" podcast. Then church and ended the day with dinner at my daughter's house.

I am really glad the Bday celebration dinners, and one breakfast are over. I did my best, though at times my best wasn't quite good enough. I have a weigh in tonight. I have eaten too much this past week. I am setting new goals and I am going to lose some more weight this month! I seemed stalled at the moment. Up and down with the same few pounds. Such is life. I will press forward. I know what to do, so I just need to follow thru and plan for success. It's hard when everyone wants to feed you for your Bday. I will be happy to just maintain, we'll see!

I just gave away a whole bunch more clothes that are too big for me. I tossed them out with confidence that I will conintue to move down the scale!

So I better get moving..lol. Keep the mood and the food real!

Friday, September 11, 2009

Believe!

Real quick. A friend has offered to help me out with the car. I was overwelmed and so very grateful! Huge load off my mind. I was willing to just ride the bike, but of course, a car is better! I knew that if I just let it go, and moved forward doing all I could, something would work out. It is so hard to just believe. I wish so very much that I could do this with everything in my life. Giving up power, or really the delusion that you have any power at all, is so crazy hard!! Power and Control.... How you get it and how you treat those without any. That is the test of this life. At least that's how I feel.

I am off to the movie. I look forward to a quiet weekend. Walking, biking, reading and cleaning. Nothing like some deep cleaning to cleanse the soul (thanks roxie)

Believe!

life changed.

I had a wonderful day yesterday. Had a great visit with my friend. Her house is totally torn apart. I couldn't live that way. Her daughter, SIL, and 5 Gkids are moving in with her. The daughter is redecorating, very slowly. I felt so bad for her. Her room was a disaster, she likes to save things, anything. Mucked that room out! Took us 4 hours. She has had a stroke and can't do a whole lot, but she sat and visted with me. It was the greatest feeling of acommplishment to leave that room better, much better then I found it! Went to Red Lobster for lunch. Ate well. Only one biscuit and then just chicken and some shrimp. yum.

This Bday week is almost over, thank goodness! Going with a friend to the movies, going to see Julie and Julia. Finally! Then for some frozen yogurt. I can only hope to maintain again this week. Walked my 3 miles, and I am sure to get some bike riding in over the weekend, since it is my only form of transportation. It wouldn't be that bad, it's just still so hot here, 104 today.

I will probably be without a car for the weekend. No problem. I am not happy about it, but it's not going to kill me. I might be without it for even longer. Till I can figure some way to pay for repairs. I put a hold on all my credit cards a couple of moths ago. Anyway, not going to let it get me down. More biking is a good thing. Plus my son is very generous with his car, so it's not too bad.

I remember were I was 8 years ago today. I am sure we all do. Life changed that day for everyone.

keep the mood and the food real....no headache this morning. No advil last night!

Thursday, September 10, 2009

thinking thin

I got woke up with a headache this morning. 3:30. I wish I could have slept longer. I have been staying up later so I will sleep later. 3:30 is just too early. Anyway, if I sit up the goes away, so here I am. I had a CT scan done last week and everything was fine. I'm thinking it's a mix of hormones and stress.

Going out to help my friend today. I am taking my son's car. Kind of scary, but I am sure it will be fine. I love this woman. I took care of her hubs until he passed. Since then I have become a member of their family. It's kind of like going on a mini vacation.

Yesterday my coworker took me out to lunch. Had lots of fun. She took a pic of me blowing out my candle and boy did I look FAT! Big puffy cheecks. Oh body image, you try to mess me up. I went to bed happy last night.

Food hasn't been really good. I am doing my best. Trying to focus on good for me food. There was a small peice of cake on bday and a bite of cake yesterday. I did choose a salad (dressing on the side) instead of eating too much bread at lunch. Still went away feeing too full. My daily walks are really my salvation! In so many ways. It's the best thing I do for myself everyday. My friend loves to eat and so today my choices may be limited as well. The most important thing I am finding out is that I am capable of not going crazy when dining out, and if I do indulge, it is not the end of the world. Trying to think like a thin person. Some days I'm better at it then others.

Oh by the way. I am so sick of this healthcare debate. Get along and do something already. Can you tell I have started my day watching the news. GRRRRR! frustrating.

keep the mood and the food real. do something already!

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

making the best of a bad situation

Anyone who has been reading this blog lately will have noticed I have had a run of some "bad" luck. And I will admitt that, I too, have thought the same thing more than once. Yesterday was interesting. I came to work kicked butt on the treadclimber and decide not to put any expectations on how I thought the day should go. My son had forgotten and my daughter is a busy girl. No problem. Didn't get out to my friend's house yesterday cause I had to stay at work. Anyway, long story short, it was a pretty uneventful day. UNTILL........

My car broke down on the way to Mr. 92's house to work. This time I am thinking it might be pretty bad. I walk to Mr. 92's house, crying of course, and started to make phone calls. Within an hour my SIL and my daughter were there to help me tow the car. With 4 kids from 30 miles away. My son then tells me that he INSISTS that I take his car and he will ride the bike to work. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

Here's the thing. Lots of hard things have been happening to me, in the best possible way. Does that make sense? I could have broke down driving out to my friend's on the interstate. Backing up rush hour traffic. Been there, done that. I broke down on a quite street verily close to home. When the battery went out or I needed new tires, I was able to pay for them by using an account I had forgotten I had. When I had an abccess over the weekend, the dentist was out of the office, but my doctor was able to see me, on SATURDAY on a holiday weekend. That's just the tip of the iceberg.

I don't know what will happen with my car. I live fairly close and can walk or ride a bike to work till I can get the car fixed. I am going to reamin positive. Things do have a way of working out. I am learning alot about myself lately. I can do hard things!

So can you. I read about you doing great, awesome, wonderful, funny, touching, heartfelt and HARD things every single day. I rely on all of your blogs, your comments or suggestions. For cheering me up or cheering me on, whatever the case may be. Thank you for the lovely birthday wishes. I'll say it again. You've got my heart.

Thanks!


Tuesday, September 8, 2009

NoGain

I was looking at my side bar and noticed that I didn't gain after all. Well how about that! That was a nice B-day gift to myself. Yep, I am 49 today. I don't feel so old. And guess what else? It snuck up on me. Surprise!

I have no idea what today will bring. My kids haven't said any ting, so I think I will go out and help an old friend get her room situated. Her daughter is moving in to her house, and she could use some help. Hoping that my mouth cooperates. I'd like to just take the day off, but I guess we'll see. Whatever happens I am going to make it a good day! I am starting to let crazy brain sneak in and try to ruin my entire day. I have been really teary lately.

Another great thing that I found out at the doctor....my cholesterol is down about 150 points, but still high. So I am now also taking another pill for that. Maybe I am feeling my age...lol

Going to the office to walk on the treadmill. It was so humid yesterday morning, when I was walking outside, I looked like I had just got out of the shower. Going to point a fan right at me and watch The Closer!

Dont worry! Be happy!........keep the mood and the food real!

Monday, September 7, 2009

the law of averages

Ate out too much and bad choices while sitting on Saturday. Wasn't terrible but enough to give me a gain of half a pound for 2 weeks. BooWoo. I didn't weigh last week. Actually it's ok. I feel like I know I am doing the right things for the long haul. Even if I have not been perfect with the food, life wasn't perfect this week. It's ok, on to next week. Handfuls of this and a bites of that do add up! Crap effort for H20 drinking. Just do things differant next week.

I have an abscess in my mouth....whoopee! I couldn't see my dentist, but was able to see my doctor on Saturday. I am reallly nickle and diming ...me..lol It's almost funny by now. I can take what the universe gives me. Both bad and good!

I found another house. Actually my daughter found it. She insists this is "the one." LOL. She wants me out there pretty bad to research homes herself. Just need to get with my realtor and subit a bid. The law of averages....someone has to say yes, no?

Had a weird weekend. Took 2 Gkids instead of one, and it was anything but sweet GeGe time. They tag teamed me and I took them home before church. They were tearing it up! I just wasn't really feeling it this weekend. My jaw has been on fire, so I wasn't full of sweetness myself. It happens. Have just vegged out today. Still might go to the movie, but at this point it just seems like work to get my ass up out of this chair. Besides, Labor Day = Law & Order marathon. I live a wild life.

That's why I walk in the morning.

Keep the mood and the food real.....

Friday, September 4, 2009

Dang it...but remain positive

I didn't get the house. Feeling alittle discouraged. I really thought I had this one. I bid $10,000 more then the asking price. It would have been perfect. I guess it wasn't "ment to be".

Not going to let it ruin my weekend. Doesn't mean I won't shed a tear though.

On to the next one. I am going to widen my search. Maybe not out by my daughter. Maybe I should stay close to work. It would be along drive (30miles one way) but I love to listen to books, so it wouldn't be too bad. Dang it! I guess I will just keep searching.

I could really use that tax credit. It could solve alot of problems for me. I will press on!

The Diet Detective

I was watching Rachel Ray(breifly) yesterday and she was interveiwing this guy that has a show called TheDiet Detective. The people have applied to be on a weight loss show, then he stalks them, with the help of their families for a few days. Then he does and Intervention.....I'm here to save your life. All very dramatic. And I thought embrassing. I have never heard of the show...has anyone seen it? Anyway, the one contestant they interviewed was very upset that she had to carry a peice of cake while walking two hours. The same amount of time she would need to exercise to work off the cake. She was pissed that she didn't get to eat the cake in the end. They said they focused on the reasons why she ate. That it was all tied to her emotions. DUH!

Just goes to show that you can apply to all the weight loss shows you want. In the end it's about your attitude. You have to work at it, but it can be fun. It's all in the way you look at things. This holds true for anything in life.

I am feeling good today. Feeling good with the decisions I am making. Life is good. I am going to ride the good feeling thru the weekend...the LONG weekend. I am going to sit my granddaughters tomorrow during the day. We are going to paint our toenails and have some pretty time. For being only 2 years old, they love being girlie. Then I will bring one of them home with me to spend the night, for some special GeGe time. I love doing that.

Hoping that you have a great weekend. Enjoy your family and friends.....

Keep the mood and the food real....be girlie! lol

I put the link up to the video I was talking in yesterday's post. I hope that works. here ya go!
http://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=+you+are+not+alone+elaine+dalton&search_type=&aq=f

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Let's talk, self talk.

I watch the show Everybody Loves Raymond. The wife calls the hubs an Idiot all the time. I can't even imagine what it would be like to have someone call me an idiot, and then have to live with them. (former life not included) Then this morning I was suppose to not eat or drink anything for lab work this morning. I found myself calling myself an idiot 3, count'em 3, times! WTFREAK? Yep, you Idiot, you're not suppose to....fill in the blank. THREE TIMES.

Hello....I live with me and am calling myself that. So today my goal is to be more mindful of what I am telling me. I am going to focus on the fact that I am capable of doing good things. Damn good things. I just figured it out that I have walked more then 75 miles in a month. WHAT??? That's right! 3 miles a day times 25....as a good cushion for error.....equals 75 miles. I am so damn proud of that I could spit! I already cried...lol..... boob that I am.

I am a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. A Mormon. I watched what they call a Mormon Message this morning that I CAN NOT say enough about. Just what I needed....I hope you will take a minute and watch the video. Maybe it's just what you need too. Bring a hankie. It can be viewed on youtube or here http://lds.org Your Never Alone.

Keep the mood and the food real.......watch how you treat you!

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

I want saltie and crunchie, or do I????

I am HUNGRY! I want food! The faux PB&J I brought just ain't cutting it. I want something salty. Salty and crunchy. I want fries. I want something naughty.....cut to me taking a bite of a breakfast burrito ( not the healthy kind ) . It was gross. Glad it wasn't mine. So I could just take one bite. Yep, cured that craving!

Things are better today. Trying to catch up on reading blogs today. I wanted to leave the post from Friday up thru the weekend cause of the link to my son's blog. Before I knew it it was Tuesday.

I didn't weigh this week. I was so sick from the tooth and the pain meds I didn't go. I haven't been on the scales either. Well, that's not true I went to the doctors office Thursday and those scales told me I had gained 3 lbs. Whatever. I am not going to OFFICIALLY weigh in till next Monday. On the official scales and on the official day. I am not as concerned about my weight this week. I did everything right, even ate less then usual. Mostly from the toothache.

I walked everyday except yesterday. I went on an awesome bike ride, 7 miles, on Sunday morning. It was great. So this morning was my 1st walk since Saturday. I only went 2.5 miles. I am still not feeling my best. But it felt good.

I put a bid in on another home out by my daughter's. Please keep anything you can crossed for me. I love it, it's move in ready. One place I looked at they past owners took EVERYTHING! Even the toilet. It has a warranty ( 2 years ) and I would be 2 blocks from the kids. I want it to work out really bad. It's along way from I'll take it to here's your key! If it's suppose to mine, it will be!

Mr. 92 went to have some out patient surgery today. I have a feeling it's not going to out patient. But then I don't know everything. There, I admit it. I do not know everything. Thank goodness that would be a lot of responsibility, RIGHT?

Well best get to work. I have 2 days to make for. Will be getting around to everyone's blog's soon. Keep the mood and the food real. And soft,lol,till my mouth feels better!

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

alive, but just barely

I am alive. Had to get some dental work done. More money that I don't have. Don't get me started or I will cry AGAIN Then the lortab made me so sick. Throwing up right after an extraction is the worse. Felt messed up all day. Headache bad. Food none. Water alittle.

Didn't walk this morning. This is the 1st time in months that have not walked. Did go to work, but just half day. I am not going to let this throw me off. Will sleep well tonight and tomorrow I will be as good as new.

Lots of good things to tell. Will have to wait till later, when I am functioning on all cylinders.

Thanks for all your comments. It is so nice to be missed. Thanks also for the encouragement to my kid. He is still gung ho! He rode the bike to work this morning.

never take your health for granted!