Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
When I was asking people to help me describe it, everyone said to say it's chocolatey chewy almost like taffy, not as sweet. The ones I buy are half this size and come in a bag of I'd guess 30 or so. I hope this has satified all those from the UK who have no idea what a tootsie roll is. You probably are still wondering what all the fuss is about. I can't eplain the hold they have on me....lol
Another evil thing about them is that they are small. They lie to me and say...just one isn't going to kill you. All the kids are doing it..look how small I am....I don't really count...
I will admit it....I ate the damn thing right after I snapped the pic. It was such a soft one. The softer they are the better they are....sigh.
Tomorow is another day
Then I go to my weight loss meeting. Let me start by saying that I love my little group. It's just me and 3 friends and one hubs. We cheer each other on. I love that we know each other well enough by now that we can talk about the why's. Like why I bought and then ATE 2,( yes 2 don't judge me), bags of those damn tootsie rolls. It's no wonder I am "irregular"..... cue the Activia commercial. I still managed to eek out a half pound loss. I will take it with a smile on my face and a song in my heart.
So I am going to keep it REALLY REALLY simple for myself this next week. DO NOT UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES PURCHASE ANY TOOTSIE ROLL OR RELATED PRODUCTS, i.e. tootsie pop. That's it. They are my Goliath! I am just not going to eat them this week and then let's see how my weight does next Monday. Cause seriously, I can do better then a half a pound. You know it, and I know.
One more thing that happened at the meeting. My cute little younger friend gave me a sack of clothes that are too big for her now. Beautiful stuff. I was just thinking over the weekend that I was going to have to break down and buy some jeans cause I have zero. The jeans she gave fit nicely and she gave me a bunch of t shirts. A while back she gave me a dress that I can't wait to wear. I can zip it up....but I certainly wouldn't wear it out. One day though...lol
So that's the good news from me today. I will say that I can tell today is going to one of those "pressing forward" days. To me that means that I will have to put in some extra effort day. Kind of like walking into the wind. I am meeting resistance in the form of TCB (the crazy brain). This is what I will tell TCB today.
I'm good enough, I'm smart enough, and GOSH DARN it people like me.
Keep the mood and food real......stay away from the tootsies! (this week anyway)
Monday, September 28, 2009
I rode about 12 miles yesterday morning round trip. I went to the AA meeting where I got sober. It's a 6:30 am meeting. Anybody that will get to a AA meeting that early is serious about recovery. Anyway, I saw lots of old friends. Missed alot of friends too. Some people have gone back out, some have passed, some are in prison. Some people didn't even recognize me.
I got alittle teary riding home. When I 1st arrived to AA I had an 82 year old friend, her name was Florence, that took me under her wing and helped me that 1st long year of recovery. She had over 30 years sober. I called that woman everyday...every single day. She was my angel. She passed in my 3rd year of recovery. After she died I didn't go to as many meeting anymore. I have replaced the meeting with church. I enjoyed it so much yesterday morning I think I will try to hit that meeting more often. I went away with a really good feeling.
Church was awesome and over by noon! lol. I just kind of organized some drawers and planted flowers in pots for the patio. Napped and just had a relaxing day.
At some point over the weekend I was out with the Gkids. The weekend went so fast I can't rememeber if it was Friday or Saturday night. I'm getting old. My daughter made some DELISH turkey burgers.....yummy!
Didn't really want to come to work today. Back to being by myself and doing the clean up refiling from all the stuff I had to pull for the auditors last week. Weigh in tonight. I have no clue what will happen.
Had NVS....I was able to wear a cute skirt that I got at the clothing exchange a couple of months ago to church Sunday. It wasn't uncomfortable either! Couldn't even zip it up when I got it it. So go me.
Just going to try to put together a good day today. Some days you feel more more then others. Today is an other day...not feeling it, but that's ok. Hell, it's only 8 AM, things could change....lol
Keep the mood and the food real.
Friday, September 25, 2009
Have been sleepng better, good for me! I walked my 3 miles this morning, but I drove to work. I had to take some things that wouldn't fit in my backpack, so I didn't have a choice. I really missed riding this morning.
Car is driving nicely. I just keep thinking good thoughts and clling the car pretty names. Hoping that it will last for a while with no more repairs. I can dream, right?
Went out to see the Gkids last night. I am posting a pic of my adorable youngest Gkid. Her smile is infectious!
Not sure what the weekend will bring. I plan on a long walk and a long bike ride. Maybe a pedi. Not to mention my usual Saturday shopping with Mr. 92. I am totally LOVING Mrs 82. She is so sweet and seems to just love me. Who doesn't love to be loved....right??
Then tomorrow night my church as a televised meeting for women. It's very uplifting and I am sure it will recharge my spiriutal battery. Who doesn't love that. Plus, they always have a nice dinner after the meeting. It's like a girls night out.
If your interested you can go to lds.org to check it out. You can listen to it live or you can watch too. It starts around 5 pm MST.
Looking forward to spending time outside, hoping the weather cooperates. Any good movies coming out the anyone wants to recomend??
Also......I have a hair appoinment Tuesday. Cut and color Thinking I might shake things up a bit, but will see how brave I am Tuesday....lol.
Have the bestest weekend EVER!
Keep the mood and the food real. Recharge your batteries!
PS- I just noticed I have 100 followers! How did that happen? To think that 100 poeple thought enough of what I have to say to follow my blog simply BLOWS ME AWAY!
Again, FOLKS YOU GOT MY HEART!
Thursday, September 24, 2009
This morning I was just crazy ass happy. ( Karen's term ) I was listening to Five for Fighting. The song World. "Be careful what you wish for, HISTORY starts now". What kind of World do you want! Pick Anything! Build a masterpiece! Loved it!
So I decided that I would wave and say hi to everyone I saw on my ride to work. I go thru kind of not so good neighborhoods. I did just that ! I waved at every car. Said hello to every sad looking teenager "drudging" to school. Waved at city buses and school buses. I got lots of waves back. I surprised alot of peeople and I loved getting the smiles back in return. Even from gangster looking kids.....lol.
Food good, water fair, mood JOYFUL!
Keep the mood and the food real! Build a Masterpiece!
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
This morning's bike ride to work was gloriuous. 76 cool degress and not a cloud in the sky. I am going to get the most out of the winter this year!
The audit is going along really well. My co-worker and I run a pretty tight offfice so we aren't too stressed. It's been kind of fun to have others in the office all week. And...best of all I got my car back!! I have decided to still ride the bike to work and home. It didn't cost be a dime over he price he quoted me. So nice guy. Crossing fingers that this will be the last car problem for a while.
Not going to make it out to the Gkids tonight. Going to go to bed early and nip this damn headache in the bud. One good thing about it...I feel too sick to eat...lol. What's that line from The Devil Wears Prada. Emily Blunt character tell Anne Hathway's character that she is just one stomach flu away from her goal weight...lol. That's kind of how I feel tonight.
I am sure I will feel better in the morning. A good night's sleep goes along to making me feel better.
Keep the mood and the food real. Get your 8 hours!
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
We are having our anual state audit this week, so little time to blog from work. My computer at home is acting all weird. Half the time I can't leave comment or add picutes.
Sunday was great I went for a 10 miles bike ride. QUESTION? When does the hoochie stop hurting? I am suppose to be getting callouses or what to toughen it up, down there. TMI ...sorry. Loved the ride. It just feels so stinking good! Then I went to church. I love early church, have I said that....well I do...lol. Then afet church I cleaned and organized and watched alittle Tv and went to bed early.....blah blah....what a darned exciting weekend.
I weighed in last night at my meeting and I got on and it said I had gained a half a pound. Then somebody said try it again...it said that I had loss a half a pound. So I am calling this week a draw...even stevens from last week. I really exercised alot, but my eating, though good, was not stellar. I ate alot of good things. Too much of a good thing is STILL too much! Not near enough water either.
But you know what I am totally ok with my weigh in. I was almost expecting to gain. I know that it's going to be harder from now on. I am going to have work harder, watch my food and the amounts closer. I also know that the holidays are coming up. So realistically I am going to focus on more and different exercise, eating well and in moderation, and drinking H20. If I loose, so be it.
I feel so great lately. I feel healthy and younger then I have in years. YEARS! I am not going to let this plateau or whatever it is get me down. I keep loosing and then gaining the same 2 lbs. I am really close to the 100's and I have seen how that can mess loosers up, even if they are still really trying. Something about that milestone is hard. So I have decided to go with the flow. I am not going to expect massive losses. I will expect my stamina and outlook on life to steadily INCREASE though!
I haven't heard from the Jackass. Probably won't again, at least for a while. I thought alot about my personal situation over the weekend and I came to this conclusion. I am glad to be alone. I love my life. Sure I get lonely sometimes, but I am only as lonely as I choose to be. There are a few fleeting moments when I miss not having a man, but they are few and far between. By the time you are my age they ALL come the some kind of baggage. Even the good ones! I am just not willing to deal with it all. Besides, I am a chicken to get my heart broke again. It might never happen, but I just don't want to chance it. This is how I feel today....Hell tomorrow I could have already changed my mind....but I doubt it.
Keep the mood and the food real......be realistic
Saturday, September 19, 2009
It was weird. For such a long time I wondered and stewed over this man. I haven't dated or anything since we broke up. It was totally all in my head. All I could think while we chatted was "man I dodge bullet". I think I might have developed Jackass Teflon. You know, where they just slide right off me.
We have talked on facebook and have talked a couple of times on the phone. After I got home last night he started texting. Yikes again. He wanted to get together today. I begged off. He'll go away I'm sure. I can't tell you how good this feels. I'm growing up. I am doing the right thing for me. Feels good to be the one not interested. He dumped me. Yep, feels good.
So I went on an extra long walk this moring. I turned the ipod up and just got into it. I rarely do that anymore. Going to ride the bike over to Mr. 92's house and then take him shopping. Then I am going to see the Gkids.
treat yourself well. keep the mood and the food real.
Friday, September 18, 2009
So I had best have some plans to stay busy or I am afraid I am gearing up for a weekend pig out. I want to hike and do some bike riding. It still gets up to 100 degrees during the day, so maybe another movie in the afternoon this weekend. Sunday is church. My church starts at 9 am this year. I love early church!
The car might be fixed today. Not getting my hopes up. I think even after I get the car back I am going to continue to ride the bike as long as I can. Going to get a food list together and hit the food store as well. That is going to crucial to my success this weekend. I am looking to try out those flatbread pizzas I hear people rave about. I need to shake up my food for sure. I am going to have to break down and learn to cook. I keep threatening that...lol
Hoping to get out to see the Gkids as well. I miss those little chipmunks!
Make this a successful weekend for yourself as well. Plan ahead for your own success. Tell me your weekend plans. Gimme some good ideas!
Keep the mood and the food real! Be successful!
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
I plan on trying out some of the hikes in the area. My mother loved to hike. I remember hiking with my mother and my sisters. Probably bitching the entire way. Good times... lol. But they were. I wish I would have done it more when I had the chance. Regrets, yes, I have a few.
I think I might even try it this weekend early in the morning. It was just so nice darn this morning. Summer kills me. Though this summer wasn't as bad as last. I am excited to be able to get out and do somethings this winter.
I feel like I might be getting back to feeling like a normal human being. It's been about a month since I stopped the hormones. My body is leveling off. At least that's how I feel now. Tomorrow ...we'll see...
Eating is on track, though yesterday I was hungry! Drinking lots of H20. Hoping maybe to get out to my daughter's this evening. I have to go see both Mr 92 and Mrs 82 today as well. So we'll se how I feel after work.
Keep the mood and the food real.
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Like Mr. Shit said in his weigh in post. It feels like this is something I could do long term. I didn't feel deprived at all. I was sensible. I am over the moon excited about looking better, but all in all...being able to walk and breath easier is the best. I wasn't perfect last week, but I was vigilant about not eating really bad stuff. Again, I tried to eat good for me foods. Drank alot of H2o.
I have been noticing that I am getting more sensible in alot of other areas of my life as well. Spending money being one of them. Another is the way my housekeeping has improved. I decide to clean instead of eat......MOST TIMES...lol.
I got another old person to help out for some extra cash....sweet! So now I hae Mr. 92 and Mrs. 82. I called her yesterday and said "Are you still expecting me" She said " Expecting, but not pregnant" hehehe. She thought that was the funniest thing she ever said...lol. She a very sweet little woman.
The car is in the process of getting fixed. Riding my bike to work. Even this has been freeing. We depend way to much on our cars. Being able to walk or bike to work is awesome! 7 months ago this would have been a disaster for me. I would never have been ale to live without it. Now, it's inconvenient, but not the end of the world.
Put in aother bid on a house yesterday. Not expecting much, but not giving up either.
Make it a good day.
Keep the mood and the food real!
Monday, September 14, 2009
The weekend was good. Went to 2 movies Julie and Julia ( loved it ) and also 500 Days of Summer ( it was cute ). Cleaned, went for a long bike ride yesterday morning listening to my "Wait Wait" podcast. Then church and ended the day with dinner at my daughter's house.
I am really glad the Bday celebration dinners, and one breakfast are over. I did my best, though at times my best wasn't quite good enough. I have a weigh in tonight. I have eaten too much this past week. I am setting new goals and I am going to lose some more weight this month! I seemed stalled at the moment. Up and down with the same few pounds. Such is life. I will press forward. I know what to do, so I just need to follow thru and plan for success. It's hard when everyone wants to feed you for your Bday. I will be happy to just maintain, we'll see!
I just gave away a whole bunch more clothes that are too big for me. I tossed them out with confidence that I will conintue to move down the scale!
So I better get moving..lol. Keep the mood and the food real!
Friday, September 11, 2009
I am off to the movie. I look forward to a quiet weekend. Walking, biking, reading and cleaning. Nothing like some deep cleaning to cleanse the soul (thanks roxie)
This Bday week is almost over, thank goodness! Going with a friend to the movies, going to see Julie and Julia. Finally! Then for some frozen yogurt. I can only hope to maintain again this week. Walked my 3 miles, and I am sure to get some bike riding in over the weekend, since it is my only form of transportation. It wouldn't be that bad, it's just still so hot here, 104 today.
I will probably be without a car for the weekend. No problem. I am not happy about it, but it's not going to kill me. I might be without it for even longer. Till I can figure some way to pay for repairs. I put a hold on all my credit cards a couple of moths ago. Anyway, not going to let it get me down. More biking is a good thing. Plus my son is very generous with his car, so it's not too bad.
I remember were I was 8 years ago today. I am sure we all do. Life changed that day for everyone.
keep the mood and the food real....no headache this morning. No advil last night!
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Going out to help my friend today. I am taking my son's car. Kind of scary, but I am sure it will be fine. I love this woman. I took care of her hubs until he passed. Since then I have become a member of their family. It's kind of like going on a mini vacation.
Yesterday my coworker took me out to lunch. Had lots of fun. She took a pic of me blowing out my candle and boy did I look FAT! Big puffy cheecks. Oh body image, you try to mess me up. I went to bed happy last night.
Food hasn't been really good. I am doing my best. Trying to focus on good for me food. There was a small peice of cake on bday and a bite of cake yesterday. I did choose a salad (dressing on the side) instead of eating too much bread at lunch. Still went away feeing too full. My daily walks are really my salvation! In so many ways. It's the best thing I do for myself everyday. My friend loves to eat and so today my choices may be limited as well. The most important thing I am finding out is that I am capable of not going crazy when dining out, and if I do indulge, it is not the end of the world. Trying to think like a thin person. Some days I'm better at it then others.
Oh by the way. I am so sick of this healthcare debate. Get along and do something already. Can you tell I have started my day watching the news. GRRRRR! frustrating.
keep the mood and the food real. do something already!
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Anyone who has been reading this blog lately will have noticed I have had a run of some "bad" luck. And I will admitt that, I too, have thought the same thing more than once. Yesterday was interesting. I came to work kicked butt on the treadclimber and decide not to put any expectations on how I thought the day should go. My son had forgotten and my daughter is a busy girl. No problem. Didn't get out to my friend's house yesterday cause I had to stay at work. Anyway, long story short, it was a pretty uneventful day. UNTILL........
My car broke down on the way to Mr. 92's house to work. This time I am thinking it might be pretty bad. I walk to Mr. 92's house, crying of course, and started to make phone calls. Within an hour my SIL and my daughter were there to help me tow the car. With 4 kids from 30 miles away. My son then tells me that he INSISTS that I take his car and he will ride the bike to work. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
Here's the thing. Lots of hard things have been happening to me, in the best possible way. Does that make sense? I could have broke down driving out to my friend's on the interstate. Backing up rush hour traffic. Been there, done that. I broke down on a quite street verily close to home. When the battery went out or I needed new tires, I was able to pay for them by using an account I had forgotten I had. When I had an abccess over the weekend, the dentist was out of the office, but my doctor was able to see me, on SATURDAY on a holiday weekend. That's just the tip of the iceberg.
I don't know what will happen with my car. I live fairly close and can walk or ride a bike to work till I can get the car fixed. I am going to reamin positive. Things do have a way of working out. I am learning alot about myself lately. I can do hard things!
So can you. I read about you doing great, awesome, wonderful, funny, touching, heartfelt and HARD things every single day. I rely on all of your blogs, your comments or suggestions. For cheering me up or cheering me on, whatever the case may be. Thank you for the lovely birthday wishes. I'll say it again. You've got my heart.
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
I have no idea what today will bring. My kids haven't said any ting, so I think I will go out and help an old friend get her room situated. Her daughter is moving in to her house, and she could use some help. Hoping that my mouth cooperates. I'd like to just take the day off, but I guess we'll see. Whatever happens I am going to make it a good day! I am starting to let crazy brain sneak in and try to ruin my entire day. I have been really teary lately.
Another great thing that I found out at the doctor....my cholesterol is down about 150 points, but still high. So I am now also taking another pill for that. Maybe I am feeling my age...lol
Going to the office to walk on the treadmill. It was so humid yesterday morning, when I was walking outside, I looked like I had just got out of the shower. Going to point a fan right at me and watch The Closer!
Dont worry! Be happy!........keep the mood and the food real!
Monday, September 7, 2009
I have an abscess in my mouth....whoopee! I couldn't see my dentist, but was able to see my doctor on Saturday. I am reallly nickle and diming ...me..lol It's almost funny by now. I can take what the universe gives me. Both bad and good!
I found another house. Actually my daughter found it. She insists this is "the one." LOL. She wants me out there pretty bad to research homes herself. Just need to get with my realtor and subit a bid. The law of averages....someone has to say yes, no?
Had a weird weekend. Took 2 Gkids instead of one, and it was anything but sweet GeGe time. They tag teamed me and I took them home before church. They were tearing it up! I just wasn't really feeling it this weekend. My jaw has been on fire, so I wasn't full of sweetness myself. It happens. Have just vegged out today. Still might go to the movie, but at this point it just seems like work to get my ass up out of this chair. Besides, Labor Day = Law & Order marathon. I live a wild life.
That's why I walk in the morning.
Keep the mood and the food real.....
Friday, September 4, 2009
Not going to let it ruin my weekend. Doesn't mean I won't shed a tear though.
On to the next one. I am going to widen my search. Maybe not out by my daughter. Maybe I should stay close to work. It would be along drive (30miles one way) but I love to listen to books, so it wouldn't be too bad. Dang it! I guess I will just keep searching.
I could really use that tax credit. It could solve alot of problems for me. I will press on!
Just goes to show that you can apply to all the weight loss shows you want. In the end it's about your attitude. You have to work at it, but it can be fun. It's all in the way you look at things. This holds true for anything in life.
I am feeling good today. Feeling good with the decisions I am making. Life is good. I am going to ride the good feeling thru the weekend...the LONG weekend. I am going to sit my granddaughters tomorrow during the day. We are going to paint our toenails and have some pretty time. For being only 2 years old, they love being girlie. Then I will bring one of them home with me to spend the night, for some special GeGe time. I love doing that.
Hoping that you have a great weekend. Enjoy your family and friends.....
Keep the mood and the food real....be girlie! lol
I put the link up to the video I was talking in yesterday's post. I hope that works. here ya go!
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Hello....I live with me and am calling myself that. So today my goal is to be more mindful of what I am telling me. I am going to focus on the fact that I am capable of doing good things. Damn good things. I just figured it out that I have walked more then 75 miles in a month. WHAT??? That's right! 3 miles a day times 25....as a good cushion for error.....equals 75 miles. I am so damn proud of that I could spit! I already cried...lol..... boob that I am.
I am a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. A Mormon. I watched what they call a Mormon Message this morning that I CAN NOT say enough about. Just what I needed....I hope you will take a minute and watch the video. Maybe it's just what you need too. Bring a hankie. It can be viewed on youtube or here http://lds.org Your Never Alone.
Keep the mood and the food real.......watch how you treat you!
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Things are better today. Trying to catch up on reading blogs today. I wanted to leave the post from Friday up thru the weekend cause of the link to my son's blog. Before I knew it it was Tuesday.
I didn't weigh this week. I was so sick from the tooth and the pain meds I didn't go. I haven't been on the scales either. Well, that's not true I went to the doctors office Thursday and those scales told me I had gained 3 lbs. Whatever. I am not going to OFFICIALLY weigh in till next Monday. On the official scales and on the official day. I am not as concerned about my weight this week. I did everything right, even ate less then usual. Mostly from the toothache.
I walked everyday except yesterday. I went on an awesome bike ride, 7 miles, on Sunday morning. It was great. So this morning was my 1st walk since Saturday. I only went 2.5 miles. I am still not feeling my best. But it felt good.
I put a bid in on another home out by my daughter's. Please keep anything you can crossed for me. I love it, it's move in ready. One place I looked at they past owners took EVERYTHING! Even the toilet. It has a warranty ( 2 years ) and I would be 2 blocks from the kids. I want it to work out really bad. It's along way from I'll take it to here's your key! If it's suppose to mine, it will be!
Mr. 92 went to have some out patient surgery today. I have a feeling it's not going to out patient. But then I don't know everything. There, I admit it. I do not know everything. Thank goodness that would be a lot of responsibility, RIGHT?
Well best get to work. I have 2 days to make for. Will be getting around to everyone's blog's soon. Keep the mood and the food real. And soft,lol,till my mouth feels better!
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Didn't walk this morning. This is the 1st time in months that have not walked. Did go to work, but just half day. I am not going to let this throw me off. Will sleep well tonight and tomorrow I will be as good as new.
Lots of good things to tell. Will have to wait till later, when I am functioning on all cylinders.
Thanks for all your comments. It is so nice to be missed. Thanks also for the encouragement to my kid. He is still gung ho! He rode the bike to work this morning.
never take your health for granted!