Thursday, May 31, 2012

to be continued.......

This is my daughter and her family.  Last week was wonderful.  I loved spending time with my sister and brother-in-law. The temple experience was awesome.  I am so glad I was able to be there.  A year ago I won't have been able to.  Things have changed in the past year. 

I am 30 lbs heavier for one thing.  I went to stupid Burger King last night.  I didn't want to, but there I ended up.  This is my addict behavior in full force.  I haven't walked in ages either :(  What do they say.....something about a body in motion stays in motion??  I know from past experience that I have START.  I can't wait for the time to be right. I have to do it, even though I don't want to.  Then after I start I will continue.  Yet here I sit at this computer,  wasting my "cool" time of the day.  Heat advisory today, it's suppose to get up to 108 degrees today.  YIKES.  That conveniently eliminates they rest of the day.....so no walking. 

I keep doing this to myself.

 I wake up feeling bloated and achy.  Self abuse, why do I do it??  I need to start by doing just one right thing.  Today it will be to drink H20.  Haven't been doing that either.  It's so easy to  stop and so hard to restart.  My thinking is all messed up.  I am mad at myself, which cause me to continue the abuse.  A vicious cycle, that must be broken.  I know what to do. I must let the past go and start fresh.  The time is today.

to be continued...............keep the mood and the food real...............  

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Not Lucky, Blessed

Well here I am.  I haven't posted in along time.  I read my faves everyday, yet I am not motivated to post.  Things really are going well.  Not food wise :(  I had a rootbeer float weekend.  I tried one and then couldn't stop.  UGH!  Up 5 lbs.  No big shocker there.  Not freaking out about it.  I haven't been walking like I should.  That is a big deal.  Funny when I don't walk I am not as careful with my food. 

Life in general is great.  I have another old people job.  It's a couple 3 days a week 6 hrs a day.  A.Gift.From. God.  They are awesome.  I don't have to be on the phone with the Mitt fundraising so much.  Not that I don't like it, but I do get frustrated with being hung up on.  I know how much I hate to be called, that is where I feel like such a hypocrite when I call people.  Usually I preface the call with "I hate to bother you".  Needless to say I haven't made any commission...lol.

For the last few months I have been thinking that I needed to get a room mate to help with rent and the sky high electric bill over the summer.  I didn't act on it, just kept praying that if it was suppose to happen, that God would present something.  As you remember I don't have great luck with room mates.  Well my daughter is going to be building a new home, with a bedroom for me.  I feel so blessed to have such a great daughter.  Well, they are going to need a place to stay through the summer.  Say hello to 7 new room mates.  I know that this sounds crazy, but we can do it.  I just feel sorry for her hubs who needs to sleep during the day.  I have a 2 bedroom 2.5 bath townhome, so it's gonna be cramped.  But it's only for a few months.  It will get me used to the kids with a quickness, then when we move in to the new, very spacious ( 5 BR ) house it will feel like we are moving into a castle.  To tell the truth I am a little scared, but feeling grateful more then anything.  I have been lonely lately.  I won't be after they move in.  I spend way too much time alone now.  Money problems will be dealt with and I don't have to try to sell my ass......ets....hehehe

I  am reading Heaven Is Here.  If you have heard of the blog The Nie Nie Dialogues you will know this woman's story.  It is a wonderful read and I highly recommend it.  It feels good to be reading something again.  I listen to stuff and don't read as much as I used to.  I am getting ready to go get my hair done.  Going to be a redhead again!  Then I am going to see a high school Broadway concert and visit with my BFF.  Her daughter is in the concert. 

My daughter and her hubs are going to be seal in the LDS temple.  This is a very scared and special thing for us Mormons.  Go to lds.org for more info on that.  Being sealed means that their family will be together forever.  I am so proud of those kids!  My sister and her hubs are coming down for it, as well as my cuz and aunt.  They arrive Monday.  I am really excited.  I love my family!  I am excited to have the kids go to church with every week.  I really am blessed :)

Hope everyone else is having a great life!  Know that read most of my OLD fave's.  I just realized that I have been blogging for 4 years!  I have been friends with Roxie and Shelly and Anne and Dawn and Suzie and Fab 50 Kate for a long time and I treasure these friendships.  They really add to my life and make it so much better!

Keep the mood and the food real

PS the title is for you Dawn :)