Monday, December 10, 2012

Contentment at last

Oh my goodness!!  I can't beleive how long it's been since I haave posted here.  So maybe things have changed.  The month I moved in with my son and daughter in law, a friend from high school asked if I wanted to be a "Granny Nanny" for her 86 year old mother.  It would mean moving back to my home town and living with the woman. 

I didn't hesitate.  I had a good feeling about it from the start, so I went for it.  So, as of the first of October I have been residing in a cozy little home in Orem, UT.  The woman is just a sweetheart.  So easy to please and I feel so comfortable.  The pay is great too.  I like living with someone and it has just been a win/win.  I love my surroundings.  I love the mountains, the memories, being around my extended family.  My sister lives here, as does my aunt, a ton of cousins on both sides of the family.  Of course the downside is I am away from my kids and my grandkids.  I miss them terribly, but at the same time I feel like this was really the right move for me.  I have been walking and loving  it.  Food has been hit and miss.  Emotionally though, I feel so much better.

If you have been reading my blog you know that I have had issues with my teeth.  Due to the wreckage of my past they looked bad and I was having toothaches all the time.  I was going to lose my front teeth.  I was mortified.  I decided to go to a dentist and find out what it would cost to get all my top teeth pulled and get dentures.  It wasn't as expensive as I thought it would be.  I work some financial stuff out and 2 weeks ago I had all of them pulled and a new upper plate waiting for me. 

This has been really hard to get used to.  I feel bad bitching about wanting to rip them out of my head, because I am so GRATEFUL to have them.  That is a lot of hardware in my mouth.  I am slowly getting used to them.  I love how they look.  Talk about a boost to my confidence.  I don't have to cover my mouth when I laugh.  I can eat with more teeth then just my front ones.  I lost 10 pounds in the week after the extractions, that help give me a little boost as well.  I am learning how to eat and talk and that has been frustrating as well.

I am looking forward to going to AZ to see the kids for Christmas.  I have my shopping done and I am actually feeling in the holiday spirit.  Most of you know that this is has not been a favorite time of year for me.  I just feel so damn blessed, it's hard not to feel the warm, giving, holiday feelings.

 I am going to try hard to update here and really get down to getting healthy again. The walks have helped a lot to motivate me.  I have been reading all of your blogs, not commenting.  I haven't felt like it.  Everyone seems to be doing so well, it makes me kind of jealous, instead of glad for all of you. I forget about the abundance approach to life.  There is plenty of good things for everybody.  I haven't been making the decisions that have been bringing me weight loss results.  I am the master of my universe.  I can make it happen.  I know I can.

I have been really trying to focus on the reason for the season.  I love the congregation here in my church and they have already put me to work.  The LDS church is the same everywhere you go, that is very comforting and reassuring as well.  My little lady, her name is Velma by the way, has lived here for over 30 years and everyone loves her and so they are welcoming to me.

Well that's it......that's plenty.  Let's see how long it takes for me to post again.  I would love to get into the habit again.  I know that was a major part of my weight loss success from before.

Keep the mood and the food REAL..............it felt good to type that :)