Monday, December 10, 2012

Contentment at last

Oh my goodness!!  I can't beleive how long it's been since I haave posted here.  So maybe things have changed.  The month I moved in with my son and daughter in law, a friend from high school asked if I wanted to be a "Granny Nanny" for her 86 year old mother.  It would mean moving back to my home town and living with the woman. 

I didn't hesitate.  I had a good feeling about it from the start, so I went for it.  So, as of the first of October I have been residing in a cozy little home in Orem, UT.  The woman is just a sweetheart.  So easy to please and I feel so comfortable.  The pay is great too.  I like living with someone and it has just been a win/win.  I love my surroundings.  I love the mountains, the memories, being around my extended family.  My sister lives here, as does my aunt, a ton of cousins on both sides of the family.  Of course the downside is I am away from my kids and my grandkids.  I miss them terribly, but at the same time I feel like this was really the right move for me.  I have been walking and loving  it.  Food has been hit and miss.  Emotionally though, I feel so much better.

If you have been reading my blog you know that I have had issues with my teeth.  Due to the wreckage of my past they looked bad and I was having toothaches all the time.  I was going to lose my front teeth.  I was mortified.  I decided to go to a dentist and find out what it would cost to get all my top teeth pulled and get dentures.  It wasn't as expensive as I thought it would be.  I work some financial stuff out and 2 weeks ago I had all of them pulled and a new upper plate waiting for me. 

This has been really hard to get used to.  I feel bad bitching about wanting to rip them out of my head, because I am so GRATEFUL to have them.  That is a lot of hardware in my mouth.  I am slowly getting used to them.  I love how they look.  Talk about a boost to my confidence.  I don't have to cover my mouth when I laugh.  I can eat with more teeth then just my front ones.  I lost 10 pounds in the week after the extractions, that help give me a little boost as well.  I am learning how to eat and talk and that has been frustrating as well.

I am looking forward to going to AZ to see the kids for Christmas.  I have my shopping done and I am actually feeling in the holiday spirit.  Most of you know that this is has not been a favorite time of year for me.  I just feel so damn blessed, it's hard not to feel the warm, giving, holiday feelings.

 I am going to try hard to update here and really get down to getting healthy again. The walks have helped a lot to motivate me.  I have been reading all of your blogs, not commenting.  I haven't felt like it.  Everyone seems to be doing so well, it makes me kind of jealous, instead of glad for all of you. I forget about the abundance approach to life.  There is plenty of good things for everybody.  I haven't been making the decisions that have been bringing me weight loss results.  I am the master of my universe.  I can make it happen.  I know I can.

I have been really trying to focus on the reason for the season.  I love the congregation here in my church and they have already put me to work.  The LDS church is the same everywhere you go, that is very comforting and reassuring as well.  My little lady, her name is Velma by the way, has lived here for over 30 years and everyone loves her and so they are welcoming to me.

Well that's it......that's plenty.  Let's see how long it takes for me to post again.  I would love to get into the habit again.  I know that was a major part of my weight loss success from before.

Keep the mood and the food REAL..............it felt good to type that :)  


Sunday, July 22, 2012

Now....GO!

Hello there~  Yep, I am still alive and well.  I just writing a short post get get myself back into the routine of posting more often.  I have got some inspiration from my friend over at Shrink to Fit.  She has loss 133 lbs on Medifast.  I don't think I want to do that, but I do want to reign in my eating and what I eat.  I know that a lot of my depression and aches and pain are food related.  I am what I eat :)

I want to start walking again.  It's hot as hell out there, but I really need to do it for, again, my mental and physical health.  I wish I had a walking partner, but never the less, I will walk. 

I am planning some big changes.  Moving in with my kids.  School in January.  New beginnings.  Maybe a new (old) me.  I really want to change.....but I am willing to do the work??  That's what has to happen.  I will make myself a deal.  Start small.  I will track my food, I just downloaded an app :) I am kind of excited to use it.  I will just try to make better choices.  I will drink more water.  I will walk 30 mins. 4 times a week.  Ok....now GO!!!

Thursday, May 31, 2012

to be continued.......

This is my daughter and her family.  Last week was wonderful.  I loved spending time with my sister and brother-in-law. The temple experience was awesome.  I am so glad I was able to be there.  A year ago I won't have been able to.  Things have changed in the past year. 

I am 30 lbs heavier for one thing.  I went to stupid Burger King last night.  I didn't want to, but there I ended up.  This is my addict behavior in full force.  I haven't walked in ages either :(  What do they say.....something about a body in motion stays in motion??  I know from past experience that I have START.  I can't wait for the time to be right. I have to do it, even though I don't want to.  Then after I start I will continue.  Yet here I sit at this computer,  wasting my "cool" time of the day.  Heat advisory today, it's suppose to get up to 108 degrees today.  YIKES.  That conveniently eliminates they rest of the day.....so no walking. 

I keep doing this to myself.

 I wake up feeling bloated and achy.  Self abuse, why do I do it??  I need to start by doing just one right thing.  Today it will be to drink H20.  Haven't been doing that either.  It's so easy to  stop and so hard to restart.  My thinking is all messed up.  I am mad at myself, which cause me to continue the abuse.  A vicious cycle, that must be broken.  I know what to do. I must let the past go and start fresh.  The time is today.

to be continued...............keep the mood and the food real...............  

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Not Lucky, Blessed

Well here I am.  I haven't posted in along time.  I read my faves everyday, yet I am not motivated to post.  Things really are going well.  Not food wise :(  I had a rootbeer float weekend.  I tried one and then couldn't stop.  UGH!  Up 5 lbs.  No big shocker there.  Not freaking out about it.  I haven't been walking like I should.  That is a big deal.  Funny when I don't walk I am not as careful with my food. 

Life in general is great.  I have another old people job.  It's a couple 3 days a week 6 hrs a day.  A.Gift.From. God.  They are awesome.  I don't have to be on the phone with the Mitt fundraising so much.  Not that I don't like it, but I do get frustrated with being hung up on.  I know how much I hate to be called, that is where I feel like such a hypocrite when I call people.  Usually I preface the call with "I hate to bother you".  Needless to say I haven't made any commission...lol.

For the last few months I have been thinking that I needed to get a room mate to help with rent and the sky high electric bill over the summer.  I didn't act on it, just kept praying that if it was suppose to happen, that God would present something.  As you remember I don't have great luck with room mates.  Well my daughter is going to be building a new home, with a bedroom for me.  I feel so blessed to have such a great daughter.  Well, they are going to need a place to stay through the summer.  Say hello to 7 new room mates.  I know that this sounds crazy, but we can do it.  I just feel sorry for her hubs who needs to sleep during the day.  I have a 2 bedroom 2.5 bath townhome, so it's gonna be cramped.  But it's only for a few months.  It will get me used to the kids with a quickness, then when we move in to the new, very spacious ( 5 BR ) house it will feel like we are moving into a castle.  To tell the truth I am a little scared, but feeling grateful more then anything.  I have been lonely lately.  I won't be after they move in.  I spend way too much time alone now.  Money problems will be dealt with and I don't have to try to sell my ass......ets....hehehe

I  am reading Heaven Is Here.  If you have heard of the blog The Nie Nie Dialogues you will know this woman's story.  It is a wonderful read and I highly recommend it.  It feels good to be reading something again.  I listen to stuff and don't read as much as I used to.  I am getting ready to go get my hair done.  Going to be a redhead again!  Then I am going to see a high school Broadway concert and visit with my BFF.  Her daughter is in the concert. 

My daughter and her hubs are going to be seal in the LDS temple.  This is a very scared and special thing for us Mormons.  Go to lds.org for more info on that.  Being sealed means that their family will be together forever.  I am so proud of those kids!  My sister and her hubs are coming down for it, as well as my cuz and aunt.  They arrive Monday.  I am really excited.  I love my family!  I am excited to have the kids go to church with every week.  I really am blessed :)

Hope everyone else is having a great life!  Know that read most of my OLD fave's.  I just realized that I have been blogging for 4 years!  I have been friends with Roxie and Shelly and Anne and Dawn and Suzie and Fab 50 Kate for a long time and I treasure these friendships.  They really add to my life and make it so much better!

Keep the mood and the food real

PS the title is for you Dawn :)

Thursday, April 26, 2012

Familair Joy

Good morning!  Just a quick check in.  I weighed myself and I am down 7 lbs from 10 days ago.  Yippy!  I have been walking every morning and really trying to watch what I eat.  I would like to be down another 5 by the time my family gets here the end of May.  It's doable :)

I am feeling that old joy that I used to feel long ago.  I spent yesterday with my new Gdaughter and then went and visited with my little old lady friend.  She is quite popular at the new assisted living place.  It's funny to see all the old guys hitting on her.  She seems happy, but misses her hubs.  It hasn't even been a year.  The past few months were just a whirlwind for her, yet she manages to remain happy and optimistic.  What an example for me.  I love old people.......they make me feel so young :)

Today I am going to take my Horder Lady to the movie.  I have a break in the fundraising while they fine tune things.  I listened to a This American Life about political fundraising, kind of eye opening.  Give it a listen.  SO much money!!  I guess it really is what makes the world go round.  I wish it wasn't like that, but I have to be realistic.

Well I hope everyone has had a good week,

Keep the mood and the food real...............

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Now on the job front.......

I just loved this picture!  Me and my Livi Girl.  We were waiting to go to church.  My daughter and son in law were speaking in church.  They did such a great job.  I was so proud.  I spent last weekend being a GeGe.  We went swimming twice.  We spent Saturday morning at the Bird Park.  ASU had a group of students there and they had an exhibit with snakes, spiders and other creeping things.  The kids loved it.  Plus Javi found a duck egg.  They brought it home and named it Parry.  It was funny.

On the job front.  I have found a job.  I am doing fundraising for Mitt Romney.  It's a job and that's all I have to say about that.  So if you see me especially political on FB it's financially motivated.  I do like Mitt, but I try not to be outspoken about it.  The nice thing is I am making the same as I would have basically any where else, but I can work from home (no extra gas needed) and I don't have to go out and get new office clothes.  Plus, I have to chance to make commission.  I figure if there is money to made in this election, why can't I get a little, right??  I really feel this is the right thing for me at this point.  I start today, so wish me well.  I hope it works out.

On the food/exercise front.  BOO!  Not doing as well as I would like.  My body is really feeling the extra weight.  My hips and ankles are so sore when I walk.  I have been walking during the week days.  Yesterday I only went a mile and half, but going to be walking out the door right after I click publish and am going to try to double it.  I went food shopping this morning and didn't buy anything stupid, so that is step in the right direction too.  Just pressing forward.  Hope everyone has a nice day.

Keep the mood and the food real...............

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

A Plan for Me

I am a new GeGe!  Little Sophia Jan Cipolla was born April 15th.  Mom was in labor over 24 hours and pushed for 5.  My son and his wife are overjoyed, as is everyone in my family.  Things are going along pretty good.  I have been feeling better since I started on the antidepressants.  I have walked 3 days in a row.  That is a record.  I got on the scales at the hospital and damn near died.  I am up now 30 lbs.  I have been eating better over the course of the past few days.  Not perfect but better.  That is a step in the right direction.  I am still job searching.  It just seems like it is more then I can do right now.  I have had lots of interviews, no 2nd interviews.  I will not let it get me down.  My life can change in an instant.  I am going to trust and believe that God has a plan for me. 

Keep the mood and the food real..............