STOP.....IF ONLY

Crap, I really wish I had uplifting inspiring news. I do not. My knee is worse, I have had to start some pain meds again, so far, so good. They sent me a report of the MRI, but I can't really understand it. It looks to me like it's just a sprain or something. Anyway, I did pretty good at the start of the week, but by yesterday I was binging on diet food....that is an oxymoron. Well I am starting up again today, right now I am wondering what's for dinner. I AM FULL. WHAT THE HELL. I am pissed, it's such a nice day, 80 degrees, and all I want to do is lay in bed and look at TV or be on the computer. I am going to visit a friend, then going to babysit for my daughter later this afternoon.

I spent all morning at the post office trying to track down that stuff my aunt sent me. Wishing everyone a good weekend. I am sure things will get better for me. Things really aren't bad they just are.

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  1. DinaFebruary 28, 2009 at 1:04 PM

    Sorry to hear your knee isn't feeling any better.

    It's so hard not to think about what's next to eat after everything I put in my mouth, so I understand.

    Hope you have a good weekend too ;)

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  2. jinxxxygirlFebruary 28, 2009 at 5:02 PM

    We all have days like that. We have to learn when to push ourselves and when to let it be. If you listen to yourself you'll know when your honestly tired or when your just being lazy. Then take the appropriate action. LOL!
    I too am sorry about your knee. Is the doctor going to do a follow up to help explain the MRI? Its girly time for me and EVERYTHING is a struggle. Exercise, staying away from the sweets and comfort foods. Just taking it one day at a time. What kind of diet food are you bingeing on? Jinx!

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  3. new*meMarch 1, 2009 at 8:01 AM

    on days like that.........just get outside :) even if it's just to sit in the sun for a bit......so energizing --that natural light really boosts the mood :) Binging on what? How about a binge on veggies ;)???????????Yesterday I stuffed myself with carrots and broccoli and felt so much better---ha ;) better than if I had eaten cookies like I really wanted to :)

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  4. scrapwordsmomMarch 1, 2009 at 8:44 PM

    I hope you are feeling better very soon!! Sending happy, get-well thoughts your way!:)

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