Wednesday, March 25, 2009

emotional wreck

Well, I stayed pretty good on track yesterday. I ate an entire avocado. I had fish for lunch with steamed zuncinni. Then had a BLT...with turkey bacon of course, that's where the avacodo comes in. I didn't walk yesterday, cause I still felt sick to my stomach. Feel better today, and slept better last night. My knee is feeling better, and I haven't used any pain meds in 2 days, so good for me. I am still drinking my Seven plus juice and it seems to be making me feel better. In like a general way. So that is good also. I have an appointment with the surgeon tomorrow. I am going to ask him since I have lost 17 lbs since this started, and my knee feels better can I wait for the surgery. I don't want to start up again with the pain, so I am wondering what is the best thing to do.

I keep forgetting about the Biggest Loser. I haven't watched this season, and want to, but can't seem to remember to set the DVR. I went out and helped my daughter last night. That keeps me busy, since it's a 30 mile trp out there, and trying to keep up with 4 kids is a workout. ( I know not really a workout )

I am still alittle in a funk, even after yesterday's weigh in. I know this has something to do with my hormones....I haven't been a period for a while now.....but of course the doctor says that all my hormones are fine....Whatever. I know my body and I can feel that something is going on. My emotions have been all onver the place, and I can hardly stand myself I have been such a witch. I have been lazy ( not dressing and fixing myself up every day.....still ) I dress, just like a slob. I am just not feeling it. I read earlier posts. and man I wish that I had that motivation mojo thing still. I have to remember that I don't have to be perfect, I just can't ever give up. I also have to remember that I was just barely making it out of bed and to work in January........and if I went anywhere else it was a miracle.

I am going to drink more water today.....keep better track of my food....and WALK. I am going to make the hard choices today.......EVEN IF I DON'T FEEL LIKE IT.

Have a great Day!!


  1. You have a great day too!! I know you may not feel like it but you will feel better knowing you have done something just for you.

  2. You should get out and go for a walk everyday and let the sun shine on your face girl! You don't have to go far just do it every day. A block , a mile, it doesn't matter. Make it a habbit. Become addicted to it. Make it a ritual after supper everynite. We just hav to make new habits. I'm so sorry your struggling with the funk. Its a testament to your strength that you DO get out of bed everymorning and do the things you feel you have to do. You just have to make yourself one of those priorities. Keep putting one foot in front of the other woman! Theres no pressure as far as how far you go or how fast you go. Just GO. Hope all goes well with the doc. Have a great day! Jinx!

  3. Keep on keepin' on!! You can do it, yes you CAN!!!!!

  4. I know exactly how you feel, when I have felt like that just a few days ago! You have a really good attitude about not giving up and doing the things that need to be done. Just doing small things like walking and drinking lots of water are two great things, even if that's all you can do today!

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