go to the ducks

I had another good day today. Still seem more hungry then usual the past couple of days. Tried really hard to stay on plan. I did pretty good. I must get better with the tracking thing. I think I am going to try the online one that I see on some peoples blogs. I really am computer challenged. Drank alot of water almost 3/4 gallon. I am building up to a gallon a day. I feel good when I am drinking lots of water. I also have noticed that I don't sweat as much either. I have mentioned it before, but bears repeating. I have really bad hot flashes. My hair and neck get soaken wet. It is embrassing and really interfers with my life. I have been back to the bird preserve twice since Sunday. I walked this morning on the treadclimber and then this evening for about an hour art the park. I just ambled around, no hurry. It was nice.

I watched Oprah today and she had on Star Jones. She lost like 165 lbs. I didn't realize it was that much. Lots of things that she said I just let go, but she did say that she had to get that 300 lb woman out of her head. I think I have used my weight to identify myself. I have been the mess in my family forever. Now I am the "chubby" one. I changed other bad habits, but clung to the food addiction for all I was worth. Sometimes after I overeat I feel like I am in active addiction. The endless thoughts about what I want, when I want, how to get it, the shameful feeling after the binge. I continued repeat the same thing over and over...WISHING things would change. Sounds just like a addict to me. Today I made good choices, had great fun at work, I did those things that I would encourage a friend to do. Slow down, do the things that matter, and enjoy them. I think I am going to go upstairs, take a nice hot shower, and watch some mindless sitcom. It feels good to laugh....so go ahead!

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  1. UnknownApril 2, 2009 at 6:58 AM

    "Sometimes after I overeat I feel like I am in active addiction"
    You are creating some good, solid awareness. Bravo!

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  2. jinxxxygirlApril 2, 2009 at 8:52 AM

    Your doing great McButter!Thankyou so much for your nice comment. I'm trying to get my head back on straight again. UUUgghh... Those walks seem to be doing you good girl. Keep it up! Jinx!

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  3. H.K.April 2, 2009 at 1:11 PM

    laughter for me is also a great release, I love mindless sitcoms too! Sometimes in order for me to stop compulsive eating, I use the "Serenity Prayer" or call a friend. I think you have a great attitude and all we can do is just take it one day at a time.

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  4. VRaz60April 2, 2009 at 4:21 PM

    I've been at this many years without success. I know just exactly how you feel. However, once I realized that this is the only body I have, I decided I'd better start treating it with a little more respect. So to that end, I began blogging about my new commitment. I am finding that sense of humor about all of this is making dieting a bit more tolerable. If I get too serious about it, I get really down on myself. Just keep pluggin' away, you can do it.

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  5. MaryApril 3, 2009 at 12:18 AM

    I think you are doing great too! Every single day, every little decision counts :) Hang in there!! and Keep up the great work yeah!!!

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  6. carlaApril 3, 2009 at 3:09 AM

    and thursday? how did it go?
    I finally watched O yesterday and really found myself liking star!

    I had always found her irritating on the View (now I realize that Baba Wawa sets it up that way :) for there to be one irritating one) and really found her to be AUTHENTIC.
    MizFit

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