Feeling better. I always do, I wish I could remember that when I am in the mist of my saddness, or what ever it is.
Ate better, walked a total of 6 miles the last 2 days and I am so glad I did. It makes all the difference. Thanks so much for all your encouraging comments.
I am so tired, it really took all my energy to walk and go to work. It's better then putting myself in a food coma and sleeping all day. I am hoping that the hormones help. I am sure that was the reason for the weekend melt down. Part of it anyway.
Going to focus on H2O tomorrow. I went food shopping and bought good food. I have been eating too much take out. I really hate to cook, but if I did it more I would get better at it.
My friend gave me some swim suits. 5 to be exact. She is about 30 lbs ahead of me in weight loss so when she goes down a size I get her stuff. It was Christmas in May!
I am not going to give up. This is what I do. I get down about 30 lbs then I stop. I give up. I sabatoge myself. I regain all the weight and all the shame. People know that your life is out of control just by looking at you. For some reason I guess I don't really think I am worth this work. In my head I know I am, but some days I just don't FEEL it.
Today I felt it. When I can stay in the moment I can FEEL JOY.