Tuesday, May 26, 2009

FINALLY...a post

Well, I have just wanted to give up. I have been eating so poorly. Doing FAT GIRL things that I thought I was done with. Take out.... IN BED.......going to the food store JUST to buy a binge. Eating in my sleep. Waking up to EAT, then fall back to to sleep. SLEEPING all day yesterday and missing the holiday. That's kind of how I felt all week. I wasn't upset that I had gained alittle at my weigh in, it was the fact that I didn't eat one dessert when I was out of town. Then I get back and blow it all to hell. I have eaten crap I wouldn't have even thought to eat last week. I do not understand...WTFreak.

This usually happens when I get put on new meds, which I was. I got a hormone patch. I hope this helps. But right now it just seems to make me hungry or horny (tmi). Neither one is good for me. I am going to call the doctor today. I am just so sick of feeling like crap.

I haven't walked in 2 days....feel crappy about that. I have really just wanted to check out for awhile. Then after I do it, I feel crappy about that too. I must rememeber I am not perfect. I can only do my best. I will have even more bad days I am sure of that, cause who doesn't right.

I will check in more later, just know that I am not ready to give up. I can't blog my way into action. I have to act. So clean up the house and go for a walk!

Thanks for missing me....

15 comments:

  1. A hormone patch would definitely explain the eating! Hopefully the effect is temporary. Get yourself out for a walk. You will feel better for it.

    Yep, everyone has crappy days. Good for you for not giving up.

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  2. We all have crappy days and weeks. Hang in there, things will get better.

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  3. A Tuesday morning hug to you, girl. Treat yourself gently and just do the next right thing that you can, when you can. Hormones are a b%&^*!

    My restart button usually involves a return to "good for me" foods with little regard to quantity at first. It seems to be a bit easier (for me) if I can tell myself than I can eat, just not THAT stuff right now. Oh, and closet cleaning. I tend to hit restart and reorganize in some fashion.

    Anyway, you didn't undo all of your good work. You've had a couple of bad days and in the future you'll have some good days and it will all balance out. Don't dwell. Move on. You can do this.

    I'm glad you posted.

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  4. "hugs" you know i can understand the hormone thing :)
    I just started with babysteps into getting back to normal eating.
    And yep i missed you.

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  5. Yikes! I hear you on this one. I'll be happy to hear how this turns out after you talk to the doc!

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  6. I can so relate to hormone hell - altho I've been doing it without benefit of the patch so far. I am also in the same boat eating wise as if some switch has been flipped. Grrr! Let's get back on the wagon together - right after you talk to your doc. Feel better soon.

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  7. I'm sorry you've been having such rough time. Aren't hormones lovely??? I hope you get some help from your doctor and I'm sure you will get back on track and feel more like yourself soon. Hugs to you!

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  8. One is not a failure for falling...one is a failure for staying down. I'm glad you are getting up. :) Take care

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  9. I think my husband would love me having a hormone patch lol. Hope things get back to a better balance for you soon.

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  10. Don't worry we have all been there done that.. and will probably do it again.
    The difference is you need to acknowledge what you are doing and don't turn away from it. Face it head on and move along forward.

    Hang in there!

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  11. Hang in there! Tomorrow is a new day, sometimes you just break the day into 3 parts and just ask God to help you get through the morning and so forth.

    Hope that helps!

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  12. I know, it takes SUCH WILLPOWER when those cravings hit. You will figure it out and when you do, you will feel much better. Sounds like you already know what to do. I like H.K's advice.

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  13. Glad to see you back to posting again! Hope the munchies settle down as your body gets used to the new meds.

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  14. I am starting a challenge over at my blog if you want to join! Would love to have you

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  15. Hang in there. I think blogging is the first step "back."

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