Thursday, July 30, 2009

buddy can you spare a dime?

I had the most stressful day yesterday. Long story short the goverment insists they over paid me about 6 years ago and they want their money back BAD. It's not even that much money, it's just money that I don't have. In the process of working something out, I am hit with a garnishment. Say goodbye to buying that house.....I was so sad yesterday, and mad, and scared. I am trying to still work it all out. There is still a chance that it is a mistake, since I had already signed a payment argreement.. I guess I wasn't ment to be a homeowner. It's gone on so long with that house now I have all but given up. The noggin is telling me I didn't deserve a house the 1st place. Nothing like making yourself feel worse...stupid noggin.

I am stress eating. Not eating anything awful, I can just feel that I am using food. I am walking up a storm though. I have been trying to just stay busy this week, especially after work. I don't need to be at home feeling sorry for myself and eating myself into a stooper and passing out. Totally used to be my solution for everything. Living my life by default. Just letting life happen to me, instead of setting an intention.

Going to be positive today. Whatever happens, life will go on. How I am going to choose to react? I am not going to live in that kind of fear that sucks the life out of you. My needs are taken care of. That's what is important.

Life is good, really it is. ( note to self ) keep the mood and the food real.

15 comments:

  1. Oh, my heart skipped reading this. This really sucks. I'm sorry. However, your attitude is spot on. Life is good, you have your needs met. You are doing a tremendous job with your weight and health. I wish I could wave a magic wand and make it all better for you.

    (((hugs)))

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  2. Oh, Dana. I'm so sorry to read this. Boy, do I know that crippling fear and feeling of powerlessness. What a tough thing you are enduring.

    Hugs to you, friend. You are doing good things for yourself and don't for one second think that you don't deserve other good things to come your way. You deserve good things and you are working hard to get them.


    You will be in my thoughts today. You are showing such strength of character. You are taking chances and risks and putting yourself out there. You are kicking FEARS butt to the side. It scary but you are doing it. You are an inspiration, Dana.

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  3. Government + money = scary, scary times. I really feel for you, Dana...there is nothing like the government to give you a feeling of powerlessness. I hope it is a mistake and it all works out, but in the meantime, hold on and stop that crazy brain from going into overdrive!

    Hugs to you!

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  4. Oh no! Im so sorry! :( Stay strong my friend! One day you will have your dream house! :)

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  5. Oh, no - I hope you are seeking advice on this and get some help sorting it out. It is a lot to deal with and no wonder you feel stressed.

    Well done on not collapsing face down in a bowl of pasta/cream cake/bucket of icecream - you have been on this journey long enough now to know it isn't the answer.

    I don't own my own home either and probably never will. Sometimes it bothers me, but other times I am grateful I do have a roof over my head.

    Well done on your great attitude - you have it in you to get through this, I just knows it!

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  6. So sorry to hear that! Hopefully you can get it worked out that way you want it to be. Stay strong!

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  7. Dumb government! You think they would give a guy a break hey?

    I'm glad your going to keep a positive attitude!!

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  8. Awh, I'm so sorry! Why are they just now noticing this. I say since they overlooked it so long ago that they need to let it go. Your house will come one day! Hang in there.

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  9. The government sucks ass, yo. You know, generally if it's someone else's mistake, they right it off as a loss. But no. I hope things will work out for you.

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  10. How come it took them six years? That is not fair!

    Well done on not caving in, you are one strong lady.

    Things will come right, they will.

    Big hugs

    Sheilagh

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  11. Wow, that really, really sucks. I would suggest talking to someone who can help you with this matter - maybe you can fight it?

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  12. That really does stink, hope it's a mistake. Good for you for staying positive though that's all you can do. Way to go on the walking too.

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  13. When something like this comes out of the blue, it is such a shock and I know I go into complete panic mode. Once I've had a little time to sit with it I can usually figure something out. You'll get past this and will get that house. You'll figure something out and get the better of this situation. Hang in there.

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  14. Babes you totally deserve your own home. I am so sorry to hear about the money problems, I really hope it sorts itself out. I got my fingers crossed for you, missus. *hugs*

    STOP STRESS EATING. put down the comfort food. life will go on. *sends positive vibes*

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  15. Well that's sucky :( You do deserve to have a home. Tell your stupid noggin to be quiet! ;) Hope everything works out!

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