I had the most stressful day yesterday. Long story short the goverment insists they over paid me about 6 years ago and they want their money back BAD. It's not even that much money, it's just money that I don't have. In the process of working something out, I am hit with a garnishment. Say goodbye to buying that house.....I was so sad yesterday, and mad, and scared. I am trying to still work it all out. There is still a chance that it is a mistake, since I had already signed a payment argreement.. I guess I wasn't ment to be a homeowner. It's gone on so long with that house now I have all but given up. The noggin is telling me I didn't deserve a house the 1st place. Nothing like making yourself feel worse...stupid noggin.
I am stress eating. Not eating anything awful, I can just feel that I am using food. I am walking up a storm though. I have been trying to just stay busy this week, especially after work. I don't need to be at home feeling sorry for myself and eating myself into a stooper and passing out. Totally used to be my solution for everything. Living my life by default. Just letting life happen to me, instead of setting an intention.
Going to be positive today. Whatever happens, life will go on. How I am going to choose to react? I am not going to live in that kind of fear that sucks the life out of you. My needs are taken care of. That's what is important.
Life is good, really it is. ( note to self ) keep the mood and the food real.