Ok Friday night....horrible eating. I ate an entire box WW oatmeal cookies. WTF! I hid and ate it in my car. This started at 5 pm. I got out to babysit and I was so tired and too damn full. HATED IT! All I wanted to do was sleep. Didn't spend the night at my daughter's. Drove home late. Slept alittle later. I feel like crap. I am forcing myself to get on the treadclimber. I have made it out of bed and I am at the office to walk. I am putting it off by posting. GRRRR. This is were the rubber meets the road. This is hard....I freaking do not want to get on that stupid thing.
I feel like I am loosing focus. It's not as easy this week as it was last week, when all the crazy crap was happening. Then last night I decide to buy the cookies....Specifically for stuffing my face. This binge was coming. I could feel it. I was "using" food most of the week. I am going to cut myself some slack. Getting off the stupid meds. I read others going thru the same thing this week. I sometimes talk myself into thinking that I am blowing the symptoms up in my mind. That I am being a baby. Well, so what if I am! I will get thru this. I can't feel like this forever. Can I??
Ok, putting the bat down and stepping away from the bat......no more beating myself up. Time to get back to what works. WATER, WALKING, and WATCHING what I eat. The scales were broke at my daughter's. Sometimes I want to sneak a peek. Probably a good thing.
I am struggling to make those good choices.
ONE BAD NIGHT DOES NOT EQUALLY FAILURE -LATHER, RINSE, REPEAT!!!
NSV- I could reach around and scratch my back this morning. CRAZY! I always had to get a back scratcher to do it before. This morning, I just reached around. AWESOME! It surprised the hell out of me.
Going to try to keep the mood and the food real. Ok, treadclimber here I come!