Yesterday was good. I went to my GYN appointment and found out that blood pressure is still high. I was suppose to get an appointment with a GP, haven't yet. I guess today is the day. I am going to get an appointment with the doctor that my walking buddy goes to. Also, since my B/P was high she took me off the hormone patch. She basically told me that I needed to see a psychiatrist because of my anxiety. She has told me over and over that I have started menopause, yet she insisists that my hormones have nothing to do with it. Smart ass little 30 something. I can't wait till she goes thru this. Anyway, hell maybe I am crazy! I think I am going to check into the cost of the Bio Identical hormones. Really I probably just need another doctor. She rubs me the wrong way.
Still feeling funky. Now I am wondering how this no hormone thing will effect my weight loss, if at all. I have been doing better, but not perfect with the food. Exercise is still awesome! Did a killer session on the treadclimber this morning. Concentrating on lots of water this week as well.
I have remind myself that this is about getting healthy. Getting my blood pressure down is the most important thing right now. I have heart problems in my family big time. My Dad recieved a heart transplant. Both my parents died very young ( before 60 ). I want to be around for longer then that! Hell, I am going to be 49 next month....60 is right around the corner.
So I have resigned myself to the fact that I might feel funky for a while. I do not want to get put back on antidepressants. It was so hard to get off that zoloft. So hard! I just seem to be loosing interest in stuff. I am not as gung ho as I used to be. Wish I could be more sunny side up, but I am just not feeling it. Right now I just feel like I am going thru the motions. I also know that this too shall pass. I really can't feel like this forever...right??!!
Let's make it a good day!