I am seriously not kidding. I just went and spent money on new bras just a short time ago. The poor girls things are swimming in the one I have on. I guess I need to go shopping. I have to go jeans shopping too. The ones that were given to me are very wide leg and not really my style. I didn't wear bell bottoms in the 70's...I swear somebody has enough room to live under one pant leg. I am certainly not complaining. Although TCB is trying to mess with my body image today. Why I am I my own worst critic at times. I can feel lighter, then look in the mirror and only see fat......I just don't believe what I see anymore.
I was sore this morning. My back and hips. I drove to work, but walked as always. It was chilly this morning and I needed a jacket. I just really didn't want to walk this morning. That rarely happens. I am going to have to watch myself. Self Sabotage is my speciality. I am extra hungry this morning too. So I am glad I brought that bag of watermelon.
Intention today is to minimize damage. I have given myself permission to eat as many fruits and veggies as I want. Mr. 92 gave me a bag of soft rolls yesterday. Darn things. I had 2 last night, no butter. They are going in the garbage today. Told my kid to take what he wanted, hide them, then throw the bag away. I am taking no chances.
I am so close to onnederland. I don't let myself really think about the number. Or get to worked up about it. It will happen when it happens. I have been doing this long enough now, and reading enough blogs to know that the body is fickle. You can do everything right and not loose. I can control ( there's that word) the out come to some extent, but really the body is going to do what it does. I know that if I just keep doing the next right thing I will get results.
Not to mention the fact that doing the next right thing food wise encourages me to have self control about other things in my life. Getting thinner is not solving all my problems, but it does give me confidence to face them. Confidence that I can trust myself to do hard things. It's a damn good feeling.
Keep the mood and food real. Trust yourself to do hard things