Have been struggling a little this week. I have super tired all week. I haven't gone walking with my buddy once. I have been getting on the treadclimber, but I love the feeling of getting it out of the way early. It's been kind of cold before sunrise....whimp, I know. Excuses! I have had a crazy night time cough that is killing me. So it's better that I don't get all sweaty and cold. "sneeze"! Food has been ok, but I can see that I have eaten more this week then last. I was so busy last week, this week has been about winding down. Anyway, I biked this week (6miles) and haven't missed a day walking. I just wish I felt better.
I don't have any big plans for the weekend. I need to clean house and organize. That always makes me feel better. I am starting to feel the "it's Christmas, I think I am going to freak out" feelings. I don't like Christmas. I wish I had unlimited funds. My daughter always starts very early. She is a great gift giver. She always has been. I am kind of "fly by the seat of your pants" kind of girl. Therefore, I worry. Then I start resenting. Stupid, I know.
Anyway, going to try and not do that this year. I always seem to feel sad as well. So I just want to make it thur the holidays in better shape then last year. Last year was my bottom. I was fatter then I had been for a couple of years. Exhausted. Taking vicodin like crazy for knee pain. When you are an addict, that will mess with your head. It took me till March to really decide why and how I wanted to loose the weight. I knew that if I started there, things would get better. I was right! Things aren't perfect, by any stretch of the imagination, but I do feel like I am living a better life. I am healthier, more active, and best all, a better GeGe.
I still fall short in lots of other areas of my life. But, I have lots more confidence in myself. You seriously, can not buy that feeling. It takes lots of hard work and never giving up! Actually, it's as hard as I make it on any given day.
Thanks for all the loving support I get from all of you. I know that the reason for my success this time is due in large part to the fact that I journal about what I am going thur and that I am accountable. I learn more however, when I read what you all have to say. I love blogging!
Keep the mood and the food real......don't get over whelmed. I am going to walk now! no excuses!