I have been eating everything in sight. I stayed home again last. Just feeling exhausted again. I know this crazy cycle of going to bed too early, getting up too early is killing me. I just can't seem to make it past 8pm. Get a life Dana. I know, I know there is plenty to do, it's just I don't feel like doing anything. I also know that doing the uncomfortable at the time thing is the thing to do. Again, it's just doing it. I am thinking this pity pot is getting OLD! I can hardly stand myself!
This morning I am going to the bird park with a friend. Then it's back home to do some more cleaning and organizing. That really does make me feel better. It makes me feel like I have some kind of control....lol. Then out to my daughter's to sit with the kids. I am thinking about taking the boys over night tonight. It's just I like to go to church. It's hard to take 2 little boys to church. So we'll see.
I don't know what's going on. I did so good food wise over the holidays, now I choose to fall apart. WTHell? Oh the brain, she is fickle...no?? I am going to be on my knees more till I feel better. Always a good idea to ask a Power Greater than myself for help. He knows me and he loves me. I also know that his too will pass. It never lasts for long.
Since I can't eat my feelings away I have to feel them. OUCH! That's when I want turn to food. Even though I know that food is not the answer. So today is a new day and I am going to do those things that will set me up for success. The first being to make a food list and then go food shopping. Nothing sounds good. It's like I have forgotten what to buy. I am sabotaging myself. I know it. Now, what am I going to do about it?
Keep the mood and the food real.......know the signs of sabotage. ACT!