This morning I was up early and started looking at fashion blogs and ebay. Ok...I am starting to have a problem. Not the time I spend looking. I am trying to learn how to dress. What I worry about about is that I keep looking at the blogs wishing I had stuff that I don't have. Couple that with the fact that I have been watching HGTV and I now I am wishing for a house that , in reality, I will never have. The past couple of days of days I have been living in "dis-ease". Not "at ease" with my life and not being grateful for what I have. When I do this I start in with the resentments. Then throw alittle self pity (where did my youth go) to the mix and well, I become unhappy. TCB.....how you vex me.
So how did I handle this feeling?? I went downstairs and organized and moved things around and got a new appreciation for what I have. It's amazing what just moving things around will do. I feel so much better. It's like a new space. This is huge as I usually hate change...any change. Want to mess me up, just change my cellphone ringer. Thought I would loose my mind and kill my kid!
Next thing is Thrift shopping. I want some new shirts, but I want them for free...hehe. Say hello to a good buy! A friend gave me 2 real nice skirts that I want a nice white button down shirt to go with. I love that I am stepping out of my comfort zone. Trying new things. Who the hell am I??!!
Ok now back to reality. What the hell is so bad about my life. ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!! say it again....I couldn't resist. I have a job that I really love. Working for people that I mostly respect and that really do love me and appreciate what I do. Plus, they are going to help me with the car. Since I sometimes use it for work. I think this is their way of telling me how sorry they are about what happened a couple of weeks ago. I am grateful. I have enjoyed riding my bike to work and around. I forgot how much I love to wave at people as I go by.
Keep the mood and the food real......appreciate what you've got.