And the Academy Award goes to Dana....for best performance in a difficult work situation. Yes, things have been better. Everyone just pretending like nothing happened. I am ok with that. Move on. I feel better. For awhile I knew something was coming. I felt it. Now that it's over I feel like I can relax alittle. I am feeling like my normal self again. It takes alot out of you to worry and be angry. When I think of the energy I have spent over this thing it makes me exhausted!
I felt it last night. The night before I did an overnight with the old guy. He was such a stinker. Trying to literally SNEAK out of bed. I dozed off, and he fell. Not going to do that again. He really needs more care then I am willing to give. (like someone that will stay awake) I can only do those kinds of shifts when I am able to doze. Anyway, I was exhausted, cause I had literally been up all night and then had to work all day. I was sleeping by 5:30 pm and slept till 3am. It felt so good! Got up and did a brisk 3 miles with a buddy and had a good breakfast. Packed with protein. I am raring to go!
I weighed in this morning and was happy when I saw a 2.6lb loss! That 78lbs overall. That's right, even with the grazing I did on Sunday I managed a loss. I knew I felt lighter! When I got off the scales I was so proud of myself. I was able to keep my commitment to myself, by not going food crazy when I things got so tough. I wasn't able to walk 2 times this week because of the extra shifts. That has never happened in the last 9 months. I didn't freak out about it, I did what I could, and told myself that it was enough. It was.
Sometimes I can't figure this weight loss thing out. Sometimes I gain for no reason, then after a not so stellar week of effort I lose 2.6. It reinforces to me that attitude is SO IMPORTANT! I was not my emotional best last month. Little weight loss. I tried really hard in Dec to go the extra mile to keep myself from the holiday blues....loss like 6 lbs that month. My eating might have been worse in Dec the Jan yet I lost. I am so glad that I decided not to be so strict with myself this time around. I know I am successful this time because I did it for the right reasons and just did what I KNEW I could do the long haul.
Thanks so much for all your support. Between my family and friends and follow bloggers I have all the support I need to be successful! The rest is up to me.
Keep the mood and the food real.........