Just a quick thank you to everyone who commented. I appreciate all the good thoughts. Went hiking and had a marvelous day. It was about a 4 mile hike. We just took our time, visited and enjoyed the green desert. We have had alot of rain this year. In fact it's raining now. Then I went and visited some friends in the hosptial. I made my son watch about 4 episodes of the TV show Moderen Family with me. If you have never watched this show you should. It cracks me up.
Did my over night with the new old guy. He was very sweet, but very active during the night so I am exhausted but now I can't sleep. I want to eat myself in a food coma to just stop thinking and stressing about life. However.....that is not the answer. I don't have to be food perfect, but numbing my feelings like that will send me off into a food spiral. You know the one....shame, regret, frustration, and when I come out of "the coma" all those original feelings will still be there. Now, since I never learn anything easily, I most likely will start over doing the same thing expecting different results. I do not want to be the reason I am miserable.
So, note to self Dana, lace up those shoes and go for a walk in the rain. It will help. Stay away from the fridge. There is nothing in there anyway. Thank goodness you are out of food. Remember what your Dad used to say, things are rarely as bad as you think they are. Do not let The Crazy Brain win. This will work it's self out.
Thanks again for all your support. I really do have a good job. It's just this one issue. I can do this. I can do this. I can also accept my responsiblity in all of it as well. There is always 2 sides to every story. Plus, fear and furstration can manifest itself as anger. I can understand why it happened. It doesn't make it right, however. But I understand.
keep the mood and the food real..........check out my daughter's blog. try try try try again. see my blogroll. She posted some awesome pics of the Gkids in the snow. Also if you are my facebook friend check out the video of my Gson singing pants on the ground. It will make you smile!............peace out!