An update. I am feeling much better. I found my keys and some other work stuff worked out as well. It turned out to be a good day. The anxiety is almost gone and I plan on going to bed really early. I came home early from work and clean and organized my house and then went and helped out somebody else with their house. Staying busy was the key today. Food has been much better. I am eating an early dinner, and I have really sucked down the H20 today. The 4 lb gain was the straw that broke the camel's back. I just fell apart. Glad I have a soft place to fall.
I appreciate all the encouraging, thoughtful comments. I felt better immediately. It's hard to not stuff all this anxiety with food. I am growing. It hurts sometimes. Life was never suppose to be easy. Thanks for all your support! I have alot of support in my "real life" as well. Between family and friends (blogging friends included) I have all the help I need.
Thank you again.