Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Kicking Fear's Butt

Feeling a ton better this morning. In fact I got such a good night's sleep that they had to wake me up to go walking this morning. I appreciate all the sentiments about going to the doctor. I went to the doctor when I 1st started getting the headaches and he did a CAT scan, everything looked good. He gave me some medication that will cure the headache, but it makes me feel weird. Dizzy and sick to my stomach. Sometimes I hold off too long taking it....and well I get a migraine. I got a very spiritual blessing this morning and I am feeling better. There is something about just being reminded that He knows me and He loves me and that He knows what's going on in my life. Makes me feel better.

I am sure that the headaches are stress and hormone driven. I just read Roxie's post about a goal a week. Loved the idea and the post. I feel totally overwhelmed. By my lack of motivation to FINALLY take care of this financial crap. I am like refusing to take this stupid 40 min on-class. WTHELL is wrong with me. FEAR! I have to list ( again) all the people that I owe money to. Not a comfortable thing for me to do. Roxie and every person commented on how they were fearful. It's good to know I am not alone and in some pretty good company. Doesn't mean I get to stay here. Here meaning paralyzed with fear. This is s chance to grow and I know I can do it. I just need to do it. Sounds so damn easy, right??

Plus we have 2 audits going on here at work at the same time. I have to be on top of things, I can't be dieing with a headache. Next week they will be here and I need to get a few things done around the office. Mostly filing, but when lifting your head hurts, you can't file.

So here's to a great hump day. Keep the mood and the food real......

7 comments:

  1. I heard Geenen Roth(?) say something on Oprah the other day about fear, anxiety, etc. and I think it is true for me. The anticipation, the dread is worse than doing whatever it is that is making me fearful. That I am already feeling the worst of it right now by dreading it. Well, it made sense when she said it :-)

    I'm so relieved to know that you are feeling better. I hope the upward trend continues.

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  2. So glad that you are feeling better - I was really worried about you!

    It's such a mess when mental things can manifest themselves as physical symptoms...and it sounds like your fears are doing a number on your body. I hope you can conquer them and give yourself the peace of mind you deserve.

    Have a good day, Dana!

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  3. Glad that you are feeling better. I resolved some of my outstanding finicial issues and I can tell you it feels SO much better getting them taken care of.

    I just started paying on my $40K student loan from 2001 so I know what you are going through.

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  4. I'm glad that migraine is at bay for now. I hope you take care of yourself and thanks so much for your support. May the auditors find someone else to bother.

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  5. Glad you are feeling better!

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  6. I thought of you today....
    Hope you are doing well!

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  7. Check my blog, I left something there for you :)

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