Let's talk about you. What do you think about me? That's pretty much how my mind set has been. Selfish. Self pity. Ungrateful. Not so anyone but me would know it, but I know it. I have had the opportunity to be around 2 other women who have major things going on right now. My friend that got busted is going into to detox. My daughter and I are taking her 2 kids. At least that's the plan. She was suppose to go in last night, she pushed it back. I am not surprised. She still think she has it going on. Been there, done that. I have another friend that is struggling in her marriage. She is married to man that I am sure has some thing like Aspergers. Being married is hard enough, but he is making it SO HARD! She has 6 kids too. She feels trapped and depressed. It was all I could do not to just burst into tears for both of them.
I was over come with a feeling of gratitude this morning. I have my struggles. Money, food, fear, change, TCB attacking me out of now where. After seeing and hearing about my friends' struggles I am am totally grateful for my own problems. They are small in comparison. My world is relatively calm compared to 6 kids, a crazy hubs and active addiction. But for the Grace of God.........
So I am happy. Feeling content. Feeling some peace. Feeling hopeful. Feeling like I can do hard things! Walked 4 miles this morning. The scale is down about 3.5 lbs. since Monday. Feeling less needy for food. No eating in bed. That was a goal this week. No plans for the weekend besides hanging out with my family. We are celebrating a Gdaughter's Bday this weekend as well.
Keep the mood and the food real.........appreciate your life. Serve others.