Or why am I so Crabby today. UGH! I put on a pair of size 12 capris this morning and they were just a little bit snug. Mind you, they fit better today then ever before. Yet, they were alittle snug. As the morning wore on they became uncomfortable. So home I went. Put on another pair that last week fit great for the 1st time. Today they were alittle snug too. UGH! Then I went for a doc appointment this morning and I weighed 4 lbs more then last time. OK! This has got to stop. The snuggie capris have trigger TCB to really let me have it! "Oh you Fatty 2x4 couldn't get through the kitchen door". My dad used to sing that in alittle song. Not in a mean way. My sister can remember that one I'll bet. The pants have never fit really good. Why did I choose to wear them today. UGH! Wearing better fitting pants, and feeling less crabby.
I haven't done very well this week. I have eaten out too much. I am like a kid who suddenly has freedom. I don't have a kid to cook for, so I will just get take out. Nothing really bad. I gave up fast food stuff long ago. Just not REALLY good stuff. I haven't seen a green veggie in a few days. I keep forgetting to fill my H20 jug up. WTHell? Kind of feeling foggy and a little emotional. Eating more then I know I should. I know the weight will be off. Or well on it's way. that's how it's been for the past few months. I have maintained. Up alittle up alittle more. Reality. Eat better. Move more. Weight loss. Maintain. Cyles starts over. I really want to loose another 30 lbs. Yet, I am settling for the weight I am now.
I am starting to get some where in therapy. Feeling alittle tender right now. My son came and took his mom out to dinner and movie last night. I was really nice. It's been along time since we have done that. We saw Knight and Day. I liked it alot. Tom Criuse was looking very hot or I was feeling very lonely last night. Not sure which.
Gsons are coming over tonight. They want to make.....you guessed it. Mini Meatloafs. If it ain't broke don't fix it. I am taking them to Sprouts and see if we can find a green veggie. I bet we can. Then I am waking them up at the but crack of dawn and we are going to the bird park. It was 82 cool degrees this morning. It's a freaking hot 111 right now. We will go swimming when the sun starts going down. My boss decided to lend me a company van for the week. I had alot of running around to do for the school. I am so grateful for that!
So what am I going to do about the snugginess of my pants. Go back to basics. Don't/stop buying SHIT and eat healthier. Move more. I got my arthritis medication refilled this morning. I have had to take it easy on my hips. Haven't walked as far. On the days I have the "eye of the tiger" one of the buddies will be having an off day. Toe problems. Leg and feet problems. Damn, we are a achey old bunch of broads.
What I am not going to do is panic. My most favorite quote is "It's not time to worry yet, Scout". It's from my most favorite book. To Kill A Mockingbird. I am not going to freak. I know what to do. Just need to do it.
Pep talk over
Keep the mood and the food real...........