I am without any tech entertainment at home. First my internet went out last night. I watch all TV on the lapop now days, except news in the morning. Then while I was putting my laptop in the bag this morning at 4 am I hit something on the remote and now my TV is out. I just shook my head. I called my son last night to come see what's up with the internet. The cable company said it's something on my end. Probably something easy, but since I know nothing about computers, it's beyond me. So I cleaned out a couple of closets. I was at work by 6 am. Rode the bike to work this morning.
I have a confession. I have gained almost 15 lbs. I got on the scales this morning and was shocked to say the least. I am hoping that if I will just push the H20 and get back to work that it will come right back off. I have been stress eating. ALOT> Using food. Falling asleep way too early. I feel like I am hiding out. When Roxie told me to entertain more, I almost had an anxiety attack. I have become a hermit. When did this happen??
I am still walking almost everyday. I am loving walking on the treadclimber and pushing myself alittle more. I haven't been walking as far cause my buddies haven't been able to. So instead of making it up by myself, I let it slide. I have been allowing crap food back into my home and it has got to stop. I am feeling pretty frustrated with myself. To say the least.
I am not going to say that this is the day that I turn it all around. I am just going to do my best. Make the next right choice and not beat myself up. I feel that since I started therapy to try to work on some pretty serious issues so I don't gain the weight back........that I have started to gain the weight back . That's pretty much what's happened. Didn't see that coming. Like I said, FRUSTRATED.
I don't know if my sister is coming from Japan now. Feel sad. Especially since my other sister spent alot of money to come from Utah to visit her, and me too. She'll miss the shower too. Anyway, it is really hard when she's so far away and I can't get ahold of her. I will hope for the best.
Going to put a smile on my face and fake till I make it. Keep the mood and the food real.........