seeing the forest not the trees

Just checking in. Had a super fun time in San Diego. Lots of driving though. Back to work today. Busy. So busy. Not worried so much about work. I really needed these little trips. Came back in a more reasonable frame of mind. Sometimes I am too close to the forest to see the trees. Not sure what the hell that means. I think it means not seeing the little things that make up the big things. My dad used to say it. It made me smile.

I do feel like I am seeing things less personal. I am seeing some self esteem come back. Not self worth. That never changes. It's God given and He loves me as much as He loves you. Esteem depends a lot on what others think about me. Am I enough? Am I letting them down? Am I expecting too much? Am I thin enough? Pretty enough? Getting back to what is most important. I am grateful for sweet friends that know how to lift my spirits and love me warts and all. This past week wouldn't have happened without them.

Nothings changed, but me. And that's just enough. I have lots of pictures but I am to damn tired to upload. I am better at 4 am. I got my cute purse from Leslie and will be showing that off as well. I loved seeing her handwriting. Weird, I know. Makes her seem more real. More real...lol.

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  1. Anne HJuly 9, 2010 at 6:47 PM

    "Nothing's changed, but me."
    Sounds like that is enough.
    The Cuteness is You!

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  2. RoxieJuly 9, 2010 at 6:53 PM

    Sounds like you had a wonderful time. I'm glad your back - and I thought the same thing about seeing the real handwriting of blogging friends!

    I look forward to seeing the pictures from your trip. Rest well, my friend.

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  3. WWSuziJuly 9, 2010 at 7:48 PM

    Can't wait to see the pictures :)

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  4. ShelleyJuly 9, 2010 at 8:37 PM

    Nothing like distance to give you a little perspective. Glad you had a good time; glad you're back. Also glad you got mail - can't wait to see your purse!

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  5. JulieJuly 9, 2010 at 9:23 PM

    I'm working on my self esteem. Huge issue for me! Glad to hear you had a good time!

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