I can see clearly now.....

Had a great weekend. Got alot done and feeling good. Back walking with the buddies this morning. How I have missed them. We went almost 4 miles this morning. I'm back Baby! Food over the weekend was good. Less over eating. Even the "good for me" stuff. Church was great Sunday. Came home and taped up the living/dining area and got up this morning at 2:30 and started painting. Roxie is right. It does make me smile every time I walk down stairs. I am not stopping with the one wall. I am going to paint the kitchen as well. It's not that big of a job. I am making the place my own. FINALLY. I have only been there 2 years.

I feel like I am coming out of a fog. I feel like I am in a much better place then I have been in a while. I have been weighing things in my head. I feel like I am moving past the paralyzing fear that has been ever present for the past 6 weeks or so. Maybe longer. Going to be real honest with myself here and just admit that my kid moving out really got me down. I know it was a step forward and I am happy for him....really. Since he left though, I have just felt really lonely. I have tons of Friends and oodles of things to do. But I don't. I have been eating myself in to a food coma and going to bed early. Couple that with the car/money thing. Add a dash of the crazy ass boss thing, and well I have just down right depressed and stressed to the max. I have been trying very hard to please people that are unrealistic. Whose demands are unrealistic. I am just now starting to really understand that. I have let me and what's good for me go by the wayside. That has stopped. That kind of thinking has stopped. I will be vigilant or I will be to back to Crazy Town. Population Me Myself and I.


Hope everyone had a great weekend and happy Monday. Keep the mood and the food real...........

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Comments

  1. RoxieAugust 2, 2010 at 9:48 AM

    Welcome back, Dana. I think it's perfectly normal to have all the feelings you described in regards to your son moving out. I think it's understandable. And if you throw in a touch of fear (boy, don't I know about that) and pretty soon, well, you know the rest. But this really is good news and progress! Honestly! You've recognized what you've been doing, decided that it wasn't working for you and now you are changing some things up and are getting WOW! results already. You are, indeed, back. I'm glad you recognize how important you are to you!

    Hugs!

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  2. ShelleyAugust 2, 2010 at 10:09 AM

    Welcome back, indeed! At least you figured out what was behind the funk...for me that's the majority of the battle. Empty nest syndrome is a toughie on its own, and couple that with the boss and car/money - well, it's amazing you did as well as you were doing, really. Glad you are feeling so much better - let's see the new paint job!

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  3. LeslieAugust 2, 2010 at 10:19 AM

    Glad you're feeling more like yourself. Sometimes these funks (whether or not they're for a "good" reason like your son moving out) really overstay their welcome. I would say that I've been in a funk myself - not awful, but experiencing more anxiety than usual and worrying about stuff over which I have no control. Futile.

    For me the answer is always, as they say in AA, more spiritual development. Why isn't this easier?!

    Nice job on the 4 mile walk!

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  4. MaryFranAugust 2, 2010 at 10:28 AM

    Yay! Welcome back! Sounds like you are in a good place!!! So happy to hear it!

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  5. UnknownAugust 2, 2010 at 2:46 PM

    Glad you had a good weekend! :) Great job on getting back to the AM walks! :)

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  6. MicheleAugust 2, 2010 at 6:54 PM

    Hi Dana,
    I am also glad you had a good weekend. I have just started my journey to better health by creating a blog. I just found your blog. We are in this journey together through the blogsphere.

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  7. JoyAugust 2, 2010 at 9:56 PM

    I hear you on the empty nest thing. It's tough!!! Glad you are feeling better!! Hugs!

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  8. screwdestinyAugust 3, 2010 at 12:14 AM

    Glad to hear that you're doing better! Have a fabulous week--you deserve it. :D

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  9. JulieAugust 3, 2010 at 8:40 AM

    I am so happy to hear you are feeling better about things!
    Enjoy your day!

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