Well what a crazy 50th birthday. I did get fired. It was hands down one of the top ten worst experiences of my life. Not that I got fired but the way I got fired. I am able this morning to see it as a good thing. Yesterday, I was just so hurt. I'm still hurt, but I am looking at all the positives. The best gift I got yesterday was all the support I got from family and friends IRL and here in blogland. I get teary again just thinking about all the love I felt yesterday. I spent most of my time telling and retelling the story to people. It was good therapy. I cried till my face was swollen. Lot of tears brought on my the kindness and love that was so freely given to me. I might not be rich in money or things, but I hit the jackpot in freinds and family. My church family really rallied around. It's so wonderful to have a bunch of "cheerleaders" show up at your door, take you for yogurt, telling you that you are going to be fine. Things will work out. And you know what...they will.
This needed to happen. I've been so paralyzed with fear for so long that I've ignored all the little pebbles a loving Father in Heaven was tossing at me to get my attention. I do things the hard way, when I don't have to. Pain, the Great Motivator! I have put up with verbal abuse, I have compromised my standards, just so I could keep my job. I don't think this is going to be easy. I will probably have to move.....that's the worst case. I went and talked with my bishop last night, I think that I will have a elder care job soon. A group of "employment specialists" that meet one night a week at the church. It's their goal to help find me a job. The Mormon church as many resources when it comes to employment. For any one, anywhere. Check it out at providentliving.org. So I will be there Tuesday. I have no doubt that I will be ok. Remind me of this when I start freaking out, cause I am sure I will.
I don't know what the future might bring. Today I am going to clean out my fridge, organize some things, bike to the food store and go have lunch with BFF where she works. It's her Bday today. It was actually cool this morning....COOL! 72 degrees. I am going to take advantage of this morning weather....96 this afternoon.
My Gson called and so sweetly invited me to his school for Gparent Day tomorrow morning. His selling point was breakfast and our picture. He had me at hello...lol. I am so there!! I am spending the night at my daughter's. Yep.....I am loved.
Got my 3 miles in and yesterday I drank lots of water. No cake for my Bday. This is 2 years in a row. Didn't miss it. Actually when my stomach is in knots I can't eat anyway. Goal is to stay in gratitude, apply for unemployment, and enjoy what I do have. You the same thing...not the unemployment thing, unless of course you should....lol
Keep the mood and the food real...............