Wednesday, October 27, 2010

I needed that!

I saw someone the other day that hadn't seem me for a while. They were amazed. They told me how great I looked. I was grateful. I needed that. Sometimes I forget how far I've come. Especially when I am trying to regain my mojo. Still trying to eat good for me food and drink the water. Doing better then last week. But hell last week I ate a Whooper and fish tacos. Bar wasn't set too high. I KNOW! I told you I was eating pure crap last week. This week so far - no fast food. Food that is real. Too much of real food, sigh. I will count it as a step in the right direction. I think I might be having hormone crazies. I have been extra anxious and I have a third eye coming out the side of my head. When you are "changing" you forget that you still have raging hormones....sometimes. Sleeping has been spotty, no sweats, so I will be grateful.

Walked 3 miles yesterday and rode the bike a couple of miles. Today I am heading back into downtown Phoenix on the lightrail this morning. I think it will be fun. Got some grown up stuff to do. I signed the new agreement at the old work and should have a check soon. It will be good to get that over with. Going to get my Gson tomorrow overnight. He is at the age when he is a handful. The kids could use a break. I could use the company.

I have really been in a food coma mood. Kind of sank into one over the weekend. It takes less food to induce the coma, but the feelings are just as intense. Not good. You know the feelings. Shame, frustration, anger, denial. Some where in there I felt some hope. So I am back at it. Not planning on giving up.

Getting ready to go for a long walk. The weather has been gorgeous! The sunset a couple of nights ago was simply breathtaking! I think I have another little lady take care of. So that is a good thing for sure. Probably just for a month while her family is out of town. Whatever I can get! Feeling positive about the future. No real reason why...lol. Attitude is more important then fact.

Keep the mood and the food real..............

4 comments:

  1. It's amazing to me how much our mind can convince us of our shortcomings - that with a few less-than-optimal choices we are complete failures. When the truth is, we still have accomplished some amazing things. That perfectionism again, I think.

    I'm glad you got an attagirl! You deserve lots of them.

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  2. Isn't it the truth that attitude is more important than fact *smile*. Glad you are doing ok and glad you got a nice compliment you deserve it.

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  3. It's so funny - I've been having a few fat weeks - my stomach is bigger than normal. So of course I feel gigantic. And yet people still say "you are so small" to me and that shocks me back to reality - I'm NOT that huge person I once was...and neither are you. Glad you got what sounds like a much-needed compliment!

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  4. Food coma. yes, I've been there way too much of late! I'm going to take myself out of that zone though. I'm determined!

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