I had a very low key weekend. Saturday I was feeling like crap. I was feeling pretty good yesterday and rode out and went to church with my Gkids. They are enough to cheer anyone up. It feels so good to see how happy they are when I get there. Baby Z laughed for the 1st time yesterday. I cackle when I laugh and it seemed to just crack him up. The more I laughed the more he would laugh. It was sweet. My daughter started to cry. He's growing up fast. Getting his own little personality. Tomorrow my 4 year old Gson will turn 5. I can't believe it. Fastest 5 years ever.
I am giving the job another week. If I can get into some kind of routine it will be better. I can't keep doing this to my body. I picked The Little Lady off the floor last week. Stupid. I get into caretaker mode and forget about anything else. I get so busy trying to anticipate others needs. I have no clue what I need. I feel stuck. This isn't fun anymore.
I feel like I am suppose to move on to the next thing. I just need to keep my ears open. I need some goals. I feel like I have been just eeking out a life for awhile. I am not moving forward with anything. I need to plan. I have been writing this same thing over and over. I am going to give this some thought this week. I need a long term and a couple of short term goals. I just don't know what I WANT to do.
I walked a good 3 miles this morning. I have made a huge pot of WW chili and plan to eat on it all week. If I can just stay away from drive thrus. UGH! That is a sure sign that I don't give a crap about me. So that is the goal for today. Increase my water and No Take Out. I can do it.
Here's to a great week. Keep the mood and the food real.................