Thursday, June 23, 2011

To the Best of My Ability

I can't believe it! I can post again. I am getting ready to head out of town for a couple of weeks. I am going to the middle of no where ( Blanding, UT you'll find it ) I am struggling with my addiction and need to hit the road to get my head on straight. I picked Blanding because I don't want to replace a substance with food. There is no, none, fast food places. My friend has a garden and I plan on eating from there. I was clean for about a red hot minute and I gained 100 lbs. I don't want things to go that way. I want to focus on things of a spiritual nature and myself. I plan on doing lots of reading and meetings. I know that I will get a handle on this. While I was in Utah my sister's hubs gave me a blessing that left me shaking. I have no doubt that I have the faith required to stop. If I wait a while the substance will be legal here in AZ. I don't want to depend on it though. I want to lead a healthy, no smoking, lifestyle. It did serve me well while I was loosing weight. It took the place of the food right out of the gate when I stated loosing my 100 lbs. First I ate the feelings away, then started I smoked the feelings away. I am scared, but I do fill full of faith. I do not want to screw up all my weight lost. I do want to get back into the temple though too. My church leader has been nothing but supportive. He has known for about a year. My kids have known for a long time too. This is just a mole hill. I climbed the meth mountain and won. I can do this. I have already stopped. I want to stay stopped. That's the hard thing. When you shift your focus off weight loss it's hard to start again.......same thing. Just like any new habit, the more I say no, the easier it gets.

I was planning on leaving this morning, but I need to do a few more things around town to get ready to be gone for 3 weeks. Plus, my friend is going to be taking a bus trip ton Moab and wants me to go. I do not want to. I will dead after driving 7 hours. By myself. I got a few books on CD. Plus, I have This American Life on my phone app. I LOVE that radio show. The app has a bunch that I haven't heard.

I am excited to get out of town. The heat is about to kill me. 113 is too damn hot. UGH! I went walking the past few days. This morning I did not. I had an upset stomach during the night and was up for about 2 hours. I did get back to sleep, but feel like I want to stick near a bathroom for today. I took my car into get serviced and I was happy to hear that "Miley" is in perfect shape. It was a good buy.

I am anxious to get back to blogging. I need to vent and I need your feedback. The title of this blog is weight loss and other addictions. I will discussing all my addictions from now on. Not just the food aspect. I know that blogging was a great way to loose the weight. I am sure it will help with this. I am going to return to doing things To the Best of My Ability!

Keep the mood and the food real.............


  1. So glad that you are able to post again. My wish is that you find the peace you are looking for. With love and hope, Roxie.

  2. Hey Dana, email sent. Big hugs to you (and I'm glad you are able to post again!).

  3. Thinking of you Dana and wishing nothing but the best for you.

  4. Good to see you being able to post!
    You can do it! And we're all here cheering you on.


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