I am still plugging along. I am really feeling annoyed and crabby, still. My walking buddy has moved on to running and I am left out. Going to the gym this morning. I have an appointment with a trainer. Then it's on to the job search. I am taking my niece out for lunch and the movie for her birthday. Some where food friendly. I think we are going to see Larry Crowne. Then we are going to Harry Potter this Friday. Not a fan, but it's a fundraiser for my Gson's football team. So I go.
I went back to Mrs H's house yesterday. She had called and asked if I wouldn't help her. It wasn't as bad I thought it was going to be. I have another lady to call as well. The daughter of L.L. referred me. It will do till I find a real job. I am still waiting for the legal papers to come back on my motions to dismiss. Still doing great in the other "area". It's been hard, but not impossible. I have hit a meeting each day and for some reason my heart just isn't in it. I will continue to take my body till my heart follows. Rome wasn't built in a day. I just need to do the next right thing. No matter what. This is my pep talk to myself.
I am doing pretty good at not eating my crabby feelings. I have not been to a drive thru since I returned from Utah. Feel pretty good about that. I am not drinking enough water though. I have been to dinner a couple of times to friend's house. Plus the dinner at the church. Mexican food. I did indulge. Weigh in will be tomorrow. Not going to let it get to me though. I really feel I am doing my best. It's all I can do.
Wish I was more positive and upbeat. I am really letting the little things drive me nuts. My room mate is one of those things. I am glad to have the extra money, but she has lots of insanity going on. One of being a huge lesion on her kidney. It freaks me out that she doesn't hardly sleep and cleans the house like crazy. I don't think this is going to last much longer. She has paid rent this month. I really don't know if I can do it another month. I feel sorry for her but she seems to create a lot of crazy. Like the kidney thing isn't enough. She is bi-polar, so there's that as well. I don't know how to deal with that. I need my quiet life back. I don't feel comfortable in my own home. I don't like how that feels.
keep the mood and the food real...........