Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Discouraged

Well, I am just so discouraged.  Neither place called me back.  You think they would be professional enough to let a person know.  I can't figure it out.  I really thought I put my best foot forward.  I went out to my daughter's last night and got in a huge fight with her.  That rarely happens and I am just sick about it.  I acted like a fool and left in a huff.  I am stressed out.  I cry all the time and I feel exhausted.  I have a doctor appointment on Friday that I can't afford.  I am afraid that they are going to add diabetes to the list of stuff wrong.  I probably need to get some counseling.  Is this a reasonable reaction to all the stress?  I don't know any more.  This is not where I wanted to be at age 52.  I have gained back 20 lbs.  I feel and look fat.  People do double takes that haven't seen me in a while. 

I know that I am the only one that can change my outlook and the defeating attitude.  I just feel helpless.  I am tired of feeling that way.  It doesn't feel good at all.  I wish that life were easier.  In truth, life isn't so bad.  I am just stuck.  I dream about being stuck ALL THE TIME. At least 3 times a week I dream that I can't move or that I am so slow that I never get anywhere.  Had one last night.

 I will get back on the job websites and try, try again.   I wonder if my all out sweat fest was alarming to the home care place?  Who wants to hire a old, sweating woman, when there are plenty of young, pretty, dry women out there that need a job.  Like I said, discouraged.  I am really sucked into it right now.  I am hoping this is temporary.  I really have to continue to believe that there are good things to come.

Keep the mood and the food real...............

10 comments:

  1. Sorry you had a fight with your daughter I'm sure you two will make up quickly. I'm guessing the family and the other place may have other people they are interviewing so don't count yourself out yet. I know for me getting outside in the sunshine made all the difference in the world so maybe today just go take a nice walk with yourself or a friend. Things will work out you know they always do. It really is all in how we look at things. POSITIVE THINKING DANA!!!! *big big hug*

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  2. I feel the exact same way... for other reasons. You need to hang in there. I am looking for a job too and trust me it's not helping my anxiety and depression. Email me anytime even just to chat or get stuff off your chest... I would benefit from it too. :)
    julieleb2006@hotmail.com

    Julie

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  3. I am so sorry! Yep, this is a terrible job market - my husband has been out of work for over two years, he's going to be 52 this year as well - I think its such a hard age - too much experience for most jobs is where we are at.

    Take a deep breath. Take each day as it comes and try to make the best of each day - I know easier said than done. Just hang in there!!

    I am not the only one who has to skip diabetes appointments because I can't afford to go 4 times a year - luckily mine is in control so he doesn't mind that I only go once a year.

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  4. You sound so discouraged and sad. I can related. But How is it you can fit in a huff if you've gained back 20lbs?

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  5. Sorry that you're going through some rough times. I always feel very bad if I have a disagreement with one of my adult children. You're probably under a lot of stress and that may have contributed to what happened. Give her a call and tell her how you feel. Most likely she will respond positively, and you will also feel better.

    Don't give up on the job yet. Take care of yourself--there will be better days ahead.

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  6. Don't give up hope - they don't usually call right away. Sounds like the stress of the day just got to you...I'm sure you and your daughter will make up soon and things will be looking better...hang in there.

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  7. I know it's a very rough time that your going through but things will work out. A job will come that's meant just for you and they're going to love having you.
    When your stressed it's so hard to see the positives but there will be some.
    Keep your chin up "hugs"

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  8. I wouldn't assume that just because you haven't heard something today means the news is bad.

    Please just know that we love you.

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  9. Dana,

    When did you have the interview????Not too long ago right?? Well if you had the interview say Monday i think its perfectly reasonable to call them back say Friday and inquire about the position or you could ask if they needed any further information. It makes it look like you are really interested in the job. Just an idea. I think you have to be sure to follow up.

    As you know hubs is 53 and played heck landing a new job. He put over 150 job apps in the government system and finally landed one. We are counting our lucky stars believe me! Get out, get some sunshine on your face.......call your daughter......many times my daugher and i have a tiff and its forgotten by the next day without anyone even apologizing we just move on. Feel better sweety. And you are not the only one who has put weight back on and needs a swift kick in the butt. :) ((((Big Hugs))) deb

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  10. I know how you feel. I went on an interview a few months ago and the lady NEVER called me back. She seemed like she really liked me too! New follower of your blog!

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