Tuesday, March 20, 2012

I Am Really Worth It

Today it's back to school for me.  I have had a pretty good few days.  Went to my son's yesterday to do some cleaning for them.  My DIL is about ready to have my new Gbaby.  Four weeks if she goes to term.  She is feeling it and is very uncomfortable.  She is still teaching, though she wishes she didn't have to. It was their one year anniversary on the 12th.  They surprised each other with the same thing......they had a book of their love story made into a hard back book.  Too cute.  Can't wait for them to read the story to their daughter.

I did got to the Dr. office Friday.  My cholesterol is threw the roof.  The number is 395.  The high range is 150.  So I am going to have to do something.  They told me to get some fish oil and just kept my med the same.  They did add an anti depressant.  Cause, well I have been depressed.  No surprise there.  I am scared to death to tell you the truth.  I have started to walk again and have been afraid to put anything in my mouth.  I teeter between must get this "under control" to "oh hell it's just over whelming."  

I will get it under control. I do know what to do.  I just need to get back in the swing of things.  I have considered Weight Watcher again, but I really don't have the money.  I mean, seriously, if not stroking out isn't enough of an incentive, what is??  I need to feel like I am worth it.  Really worth it.  I know that is what is really my problem.  I'm working on it.  I hope the med starts to work, along with me making behavior adjustments.  It just seems like one long big struggle.  I'm tired.  Anyway, enough of that.  I will press forward.

Had fun with the kids over the weekend.  Got three of them and had a ball.  I just need to focus on the good things in my life.  Stay grateful for the things I do have.  I do have a lot to be grateful for.

Keep the mood and the food real............


7 comments:

  1. Sorry your struggling and your cholestrol is so high. Have you considered TOPS? It's only $28 a year, you can look for a meeting in your area online www.tops.org. I know for me it was a God send. Yep we have to stay grateful. I think getting out in the sunshine will help ya. I'm here if you need to talk *big hugs*

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  2. Indeed you are worth it and then some!! "hugs"
    I totally relate to the cholesterol all the females in my family have terribly high cholesterol :(
    Try sparkpeople.com which is free.

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  3. How about trying myfitnesspal.com? It's also free.

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  4. OOh I love myfitnesspal, I've lost a lot of weight on it. You are worth it Dana, best wishes and hugs all the way from Australia.
    Julie

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  5. you are SO SO SO WORTH IT.
    and us? we are only here to support you.
    never fear tell US :)

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  6. YOU are always wroth it!
    It's all worth it.

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