TO THE BEST OF MY ABILITY

I guess it was best they fired me. I have been sick for 2 days and would have had to call in anyway. Nothing like sealing your fate by calling in when you hanging by a thread anyway....lol. Feeling better about the whole ordeal. Trying to be ojective and not take it personally. Haven't been eating the worse or the best. Walked this morning. Drinking lots of H20. Trying to stay busy in my little place. Think I will do some filing today. Waiting to hear back from a family member about another private duty job. Until then I am puppy sitting. The newlyweds got a puppy. They had to work long hours yesterday and today and hated to leave her alone. Oh brother. Anyway so I am doing that. Just waiting to feel presentable again. Hope everyone's week is humming right along. I really feel I am handling this well. With not so much fear. I might be getting used to life on the edge. Thanks for all the encouragement! Who wouldn't love that! keep the mood and the food real................

There is the Motley Crew just before we released them to hunt for eggs. I had everyone over for Easter Dinner yesterday. It could have been a great time, but the woman at work called and told me that it wasn't going to work out and there went the job. She was very vague. Just not a right fit. In 25 years of doing this I have never been told I wasn't a right fit. I was pretty much crushed for the afternoon. To make matters worse, I had invited a sweet girl that worked there with me. I know she felt terrible. I am still feeling fragile this morning. Scared and just down right frustrated. I already have a line on another job. I am questioning myself all over the place. I can only be me. That ME has been satisfying the people I cared for for the past 25 years. She can't be all bad. The hubs didn't like the home care agency he had in there before, so I guess I am not the only "professional" he didn't like. Something good is just around the corner. I feel so li...

I guess I made a mess of my post today. I loaded a pic of my old car Birdie from that new smarter then me phone and it just posted a pic. Anyway, this is my new ride. I am happy as a clam and life is good. Any good names for this car? Going to have to kids chime in with names as well. Going to take the boys to the drive in tonight to see Rio. I hope it's as funny as it looks. Fingers crossed. Microwave popcorn and licorice. It'sjust cool enough at night to snuggle. Good times. tata Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.8

Let me introduce you to Birdie the car. This is the car that a couple in my church gave me to use while I saved for a new car. She is an older girl....1989. A huge Thunderbird on the hood and trunk......hence the name Birdie. My Gkids loved this car. The seat belts automatically roll over you. The speaker where bare. The windshield was cracked. She had a hard time finding drive 1st thing in the morning. She had cold air, that blew on your feet. She had a kick ass stereo that I didn't realized that it work for about 4 weeks after I got the car. This car improved the quality of my life immensely. To think that I was fired for using my old job's van, on approval. After I am fired someone gives me a car. This gesture of kindness lifted my spirits, touched my heart and gave me hope. I was so scared afer I got canned. Turns out it was the best thing that could have happened. It has made depend more on myself, and the Lord. Not knowing from week to week how the job situation will be h...

Feeling 1,000 times better! Haven't slept yet, but I just wanted to say that. Good times ahead. Now I have 4 days off. OH YEA BABY! I am feeling like me. As soon as I started talking about being depressed with others, things turned around for me. I didn't eat as well as I should have yesterday, but not too shabby. I am eating again, that is good. Ok, have a great hump day.......GOOD NIGHT!

Well Hello. Remember me? I have been busy working over nights ever since I got home from Utah. I bought a new car while I was there. I love the car. I felt alittle buyers remorse at 1st but really I have driven it home, to my kid's house and to work. I have felt very odd and depressed since I got back. I am sure working nights is not helping. Last night I don't think the woman fell alseep till around 4 am. BOO! I was tired for sure. It's very hard to get back into the swing of real life. Haven't walked for a week. However.my nerves have been so crazy that I haven't wanted to eat. The is a 1st for everything. My nerves have been so raw that I got a cranker sore in my nose. My nose! Anyway, I weighed yesterday and I weighed 197.6 lbs. That is down a bunch, but I don't feel like I earned it. Weird again, I know. Well I think I will try to eat something. My hormones must be way off or I am having a pretty good bout with depression. I will wait and see. I don't w...

I am checking in real quick. Life is so stinkin busy. And FUN! Did I mention fun?! My sister's MIL passed and her and her family are here from Japan. We have been walking and just spending time hanging out. So that's fun. Then I got another job!! It's only 3/10 hour shifts a week, but it will pay the bills. Plus that frees me up to clean a house or helping out another older person during the day. Not to mention I get to continue my FHC classes. Another really neat thing is that my sister and I ARE going to do a road trip to Utah. It's a 10 hour drive and her kids will prob come too, but I don't give a hoot. I get another Sister's Weekend!! Last one with all of us we like 2 years ago. I am scheduled to teach Sunday School This Sunday to a class of adults. Kids are easy, adults, well PRESSURE! And I am not prepared. Haven't done a thing. I really need to get on it. I have another one day elder companion job Friday during the day. I will study and prepare then....

My sister sent a CD with some more wedding pics. This is my absolute fave. It reminds me of what a wonderful night that was. Things are going great. I have been super tired the past couple of days. Too many 2:30 wake ups. Then can't fall back to sleep. Slept till 6:30 this morning. Heaven. I have been eating right and walking walking walking. Need to up the H2O. It's getting hot here. 94 degrees the other day. It seems so weird that it's snowing in some areas. My sister that lives in Tokyo will be coming for a 2 week visit. Her MIL passed away. It was a blessing. I think we might take a road trip to Utah to visit my other sister. I love a road trip! Nothing new on the job front. I just keep looking. And praying. My past haunts me when it comes to background checks. So my selection is limited. I never had a problem finding a job before. With the economy the way it is, it's much harder. There are too many other applicants that don't have a criminal background. I have ...