TO THE BEST OF MY ABILITY

Wow! It's been awhile since I have been on to post. Things are busy with the end of the semester and with the holiday. I have been on a gaining binge. Not really sure why, but I have gained like 5 lbs since the holiday weekend. It will go away I know how to make it happen. Had a great Thanksgiving. My son and DIL hosted with her mother helping and it was awesome. Such a cute little family. Then I went and spent the night with my daughter and her family. We went to Walmart at midnight and MAN was it a mad house. I have never done Black Friday. Won't do it again. It was kind of fun just running in and running out watching people go nuts. They were out of everything my daughter wanted. All the other stuff she got online. Thank goodness for the internet. I did a little point and click myself on Monday. Got the Gkid taken care of and I am going easy on my grown up kids. I can't afford to make all their dreams come true :) School is going great and I am gearing ...

I had such a lovely night with my family last night. It's so awesome when the Gkids fight over who gets to sit by me and cry when they have to go home. Who wouldn't love that kind of love and attention. We all had dinner and then went to the temple and watched them put up the Christmas lights. They really put a lot of time and energy into their display. While we were there we watched a movie about families being forever. It really touched my heart. It was a night to remember! Ever since the Dr told me that I need to lose 20 lbs I can't stop eating. UGH!!! WTF? I know it's the rebel in me. I'll show him, I will gain weight. So dumb. I am going to make this a temporary behavior problem. I am going to get my sh*t together. I am not going to wait till after Thanksgiving or Christmas, I am going to start making improvements NOW !! I want to be around to see my Gkids grow up, get married, have their own children and successful lives. I don't know if I...

Good Tuesday morning! This past weekend was one of the best ever. First on Saturday I went for a long walk. Felt so GREAT! I forgot just how much I love my walks. Then on Saturday I went to see the movie Tower Heist. I loved it. Just what I was looking for, mindless fun where the Wall Street asshole gets his just desserts. The funniest part to me was when Mathew Broderick tried to go all bad ass on Eddie Murphy's character. It still makes me laugh. It wasn't that of a great movie, but it was just what needed. Then we came back and between 2 different friends I finished my Excel homework. I was just so grateful to have that over with. I took the practice test and another CT test. Real test is today, so I just hope I am ready. Not going to beat myself up. I did my best. If I don't get an A in Excel, I am not going to cry. I have decided that I am going to go ahead and go to the next level of Mircosoft next semester. The teacher really had to hurry us throug...

Good Morning! I hope everyone is enjoying their life where ever they are. Life is plugging right along for me. I am really struggling with excel, but I have been offered a tutor and so far I haven't needed it. It seems to just matter that it's there waiting for me. Isn't that how it is with lots of things in life. I have had this habit of living in the future. I am scared to death that even after a little school I am not going to be able to get a job that will pay enough to support me. The job I had at the school, if I get serious with myself, paid me much more then I probably deserved. I really don't have the skills to match the money I was getting. I feel like a hypocrite. I am so mad that they pay their own family too much, but it was ok when I was working there. Yep, hypocrite. Actually, I was making a living wage, not a lot, but living. I My goal is try to live in the present, that's why they call it a gift....lol. It only makes me nervous and worr...

Another job found me! More hours and good money. The only draw back is the woman never stops talking. If it was uplifting I would love it. She complained for a solid 6 hours yesterday. Bless her daughter's heart, that's all I can say. How the daughter turned out to positive in any way is a miracle! The woman is obsessed with keeping her money. She has lots of money, and she can't take it with her. Her daughter is taking her to the Dr. and dentist and trying to do what's best for her. All she sees is $$$$ "flying out the window". Her words, not mine. Anyway, I am going to do my best to be a force for good in her life. Wish me luck! I have been eating more lately. I am up 2 lbs from last week. I haven't been able to walk in a few days, which is crazy, cause the weather has been wonderful! I am going to reset my priorities and get back on track. I went food shopping, that's always a step in the right direction. I had a crazy dream last n...