TO THE BEST OF MY ABILITY

WOW! This week has flown by. Seriously, where did it go?? Put on my big girl pants this morning and went into Phoenix to take care of the final stages of my financial mess. I feel like a weight (no pun ) has been lifted off my shoulders. Then I got another killer headache. UGH! Oh well. Not going to let it dampen my spirits. I feel like I can move forward with things. It not over yet, but almost. I have let this eat away at me for a while. Having to delay it while my sister visited and I had my daughter's shower really did take it's toll on me. I am sick of the phone calls. Everytime my phone rings I cringe. I have taken to just turning it off. I have really tried not to eat the stress I have been feeling, but alas I have alittle. I am up another pound. I know how to get it off again, so I will press forward. It is what it is. There was a time when I just wouldn't have stepped on the scales. I have been allowing a little of the FrankenFood into my diet....

Got in a great 4 mile walk this morning. I looked like a rain cloud had followed just me around. I was SWEATY. Had a nice Sunday. Church, a nap and then a movie with a friend I hadn't seen for a while. Went to see EatPrayLove. I tried to read the book, but couldn't make it out of Italy. The book rubbed me the wrong way. I thought the movie was better then I expected. I'm not sure what I expected...lol. I need to go food shopping. Still doing good with no food comas. That is a big improvement. Trying to get out more and not be such a hermit. So I consider this past weekend a huge success. Kind of got the Monday blues. Wish the weekend would have been longer. Things at work are settling back to normal. Don't feel as stressed about things. There is a heat advisory out today. UGH! 108 degrees plus the incredible humidity. Probably be like this for the rest of the week. I am sick of summer. Too bad it lasts till November. Keep the mood and the food r...

Have really had a pretty good week. No food comas. Lots of H20 and I've tried to make the most of all my walks. I had overnight guests last night. As many of you know my daughter adopted 4 children thru foster care. The oldest boy and girl have siblings that live with and have been adopted by another foster family. I guess things aren't going so good with the other foster family. The mother waited till 2 weeks after the adoption was final and let left the dad, with the older girls 12. his own and the adopted 11. I took the 11 year adopted daughter over night with her little sister that my daughter adopted. It was a fun time and I did enjoy it. It kept me busy and they were good company. I felt so bad for the 11 year old. The mother had her get a relaxer put in her very fragile African-American hair. It almost all fell out but just little bit. Broke my heart. She was crying and trying to make fun it before anyone else. It damn near killed me. I wish so bad I a...

WOW! The week has flown by. I can't believe it's already Thursday. Work has been crazy. I have been lazy. I am worn out when I get home. I haven't really been wanting to blog this week. Doing alittle less time on the computer and more time engaged in real life. Which is a good thing. Food has been good. Not eating out. Fruits and veggies and protein. The good stuff. Went to book club Tuesday night and said no to the sweet roll. Got on the scales the next morning and gained 2 lbs. The body, she is fickle....no? Made me laugh. Weighing ever day has been good and as long as I can keep this kind of attitude I am going to keep it up. I am overall feeling more peaceful. Walking as always. Getting ready to watch good old Brenda Lee Johnson solve another murder. I woke up late this morning and opted out of an outdoor walk. So the treadclimber is happening as soon as I sign off. Trying to push myself alittle harder. Have been thinking alot about my body ima...

Monday, Monday. Not feeling it this morning. Got my walk in early before work. 3 miles. My knee is kind of sore. UGH! So I am going to ice it. It's not crazy sore, just letting me know it's still there. Weekend was good. Saturday we went with my daughter and her family to see the 3D sonogram. Pretty cute and they got some really good pictures. After a few minutes of pushing and prodding Baby Z struck a pose and it was just amazing. Note the picture for proof. It was my daughter's Bday gift to herself. She turned 27 Sunday. I am too damn young to have a kid that old. No really. She is a wonderful daughter that has a giving and sweet spirit. I wish I could help her more. I just live too far away and no car for now. I was able to go and help her yesterday for her Bday. Pre-made TJs little meatloaves. My Gkids could eat those everyday. Baked her a cake and told her to go shopping. She does love shopping. For her kids...always for her kids. My eating has been just ok. Not using...

Well here I am in all my glory. I look crazy happy, right? Just prior to this I was crying. That hike is HARD! I was crying cause I really thought I was in better shape. You will notice in the pictures that I sweating ALOT! My friend told me it was like a rain cloud had followed just me around. Then there is my sister. Dry. Beautiful. Story of my life...lol. My sister was kind enough to inform me that I needed a sports bra....after we took the pic. I really do need one...lol. I look crazy happy here because I am down the mountain. Fell only once. The fronts of my legs are just today feeling back to normal. They hurt! Would I do it again? Hell Yes! I am going to do it again. When it's cooler. This fall. I can't wait. I loved this pic of my daughter and her family. We had left over shower food for dinner that night. There was alot of left overs. Gave them all away, to this family! This is a picture of the adult cousins. With 2 Gkids that snuck in...l...

Really quick post. I had so much fun. Working/playing really hard. The shower was great. We made my daughter sit under a beach umbrella in a lawn chair and wear this silly hat. I couldn't have done it without my friends. I have the best friends on the planet. You thought you did, right? No way, it's my friends all the way. My daughter had a good time and got lots of nice stuff. It has been really good to have my sister and her kids here. Today is my mother's birthday. I miss her very much. My mother was a hiker. My sister and I went for a hike yesterday. Almost straight up 1.8 miles. So hard I cried. I made it to the top though. It was a very emotional thing for me. I could hear my mother in my ear telling me that I wasn't a quitter. Pics will follow. I need to get them from my sister. Went to see the Other Guys. Not as funny as they said it was going to be. Don't pay full price. Then said good bye to my family. Again, emotional. I am taking it easy tonight. To bed ...

MY FAMILY WILL BE HERE TONIGHT! For those of you who don't know I get little kid excited to see my family. This is a picture of the cousins. My sister's son and my daughter. He hasn't visited since my daughter got married. Oh so much as changed since then! I feel especially blessed and loved. The reason?? They are coming to visit me in the heat of the August....so basically the volunteering braving "hell" to visit us. It's especially sweet cause her two grown kids with bills to pay and jobs took time out of their lives to come and visit. Yep, they love us! Well I am bushed! I got the kitchen painted. It's yellow....maybe alittle brighter than I wanted. I look at it this way. Who cares? It is a hellava lot better then then old color. It was dark...VERY DARK. Freakishly depressingly dark. It took almost 4 coats of "primer in it" paint. I would have to call bulllshit on the primer claim. So the job was a hellava lot harder than I thou...

What to know a secret?? I don't want to be at work today. I want to be home painting my kitchen. I want to be shopping for the baby shower. I want to be any where but here. But here I am am! So I will make the best of it. Things are still humming right along. I am eating much better. Less over eating. Eating good for me food. I am loving what I put in my mouth. Not lying in bed all the live long day. Feeling engaged and present. I walked about 2 miles with my buddy then I rode the bike to work. THEN I got on the treadclimber while I watched The Closer. Another 45 mins of hot, sweating fun. Need to push the H20. Drink up! I am getting so excited for the shower and my family coming. I don't really have anything planned. I feel relaxed and calm. For now. I am going to enjoy it. Anybody know I good sweet and sour meatball recipe......Anyone......TJ? We are going Hawaiian for the shower. Best get to at least looking busy. My body is here but my head is plann...

Had a great weekend. Got alot done and feeling good. Back walking with the buddies this morning. How I have missed them. We went almost 4 miles this morning. I'm back Baby! Food over the weekend was good. Less over eating. Even the "good for me" stuff. Church was great Sunday. Came home and taped up the living/dining area and got up this morning at 2:30 and started painting. Roxie is right. It does make me smile every time I walk down stairs. I am not stopping with the one wall. I am going to paint the kitchen as well. It's not that big of a job. I am making the place my own. FINALLY. I have only been there 2 years. I feel like I am coming out of a fog. I feel like I am in a much better place then I have been in a while. I have been weighing things in my head. I feel like I am moving past the paralyzing fear that has been ever present for the past 6 weeks or so. Maybe longer. Going to be real honest with myself here and just admit that my kid moving out really got me ...